wow life stinks. i went to my friends...the fat one..the one who cares NOTHING about how fat she is. and i ate. and ate ...and ate. it was terrible. im done eating for the rest of the fucking week. seriously. IM DONE!!! skinni skinni skinni. yeah thats all. i feel thin still from lookin at her but yeah..means nothing. wow. i hate life. what can i ( Read more... )

wow life stinks. i went to my friends...the fat one..the one who cares NOTHING about how fat she is. and i ate. and ate ...and ate. it was terrible. im done eating for the rest of the fucking week. seriously. IM DONE!!! skinni skinni skinni. yeah thats all. i feel thin still from lookin at her but yeah..means nothing. wow. i hate life. what can i ( Read more... )

well. today i feel fat--er than usuall. i had the usually cottage cheese and carrots at lunch today..andd then i added a bag of baked potato chips...140cals..yeahhh thats prolly why i feel fat. oh well. im under 300cals so i guess its okay...kinda. hmm im probably gonna work out tonight. havent done anything for like a week, soooo yeah. wow im soo ( Read more... )

all week i did pretty much fabulous. now is the real test..the weekend! it ALWAYS gets me and i binge on EVERYTHING!! NOT THIS TIME DAMN IT! seriously. im gonna put tea bags in my purse and if im at some ones house and theres food out hahah im just gonna make my damn tea =].  i think today will be the 1st hangout with my boy and best friend after ( Read more... )

i need a new start. i really do. i wanna be thin and beautiful. no acceptions at all. and it starts now.
im gonna start thinspo surfing ANY time that i can now. working out WAY more (hopefully). i just have to stay strong. and if i do eat anything unhealthy, im throwin the shit up. and thats final.
today
--2 fizzy lemon drinks_____120cals
--7 ( Read more... )

i really just dooo not no anymore =[

im starting to question this whole starving thing..
like b4 i was really in to it. and because im sucha
failure, it ends up being starve all week binge on weekends
making me gain more weight then i lose...i swear if i go back to
normal, semi-healthy eating then i will be fatter than i was before all
this junk happind. i used to be able to eat anything ( Read more... )

soooo i did good. 290 cals. then nite time comes. and guess wht.
i had to be a fat ass and eat eat eat eat eat eat. & RUIN EVERYTHING =]
immmmm pissed ! ! ! ! ! ! ! !
14 crackers w. peanut butter and jelly on 'em---------250 cals appx.
a granola bar---------------------------------------------------140 cals
bag of popcorn ( Read more... )

well today was NO WHERE near as good as some of the other days i've had. but i guess for jus "restarting" after a major weekend full of binging i did okay..my total was about 920 calories. yeahh ik terrible. you DO NOT have to tell me. kay =] but yeahhh. i really wanted to go purge up all the shit i ate at lunch but my "leach" would not get off my ( Read more... )

im pissed ( Read more... )