a hedgehog crawls out from under a rock and says:

[wanderlight]

If I don't write this post in one go, I'll never write it -- which is what I've been (not)doing for the past three months -- so I'm just going to do it, sloppily, imperfectly, never mind that I wanted to say something meaningful about illness and loss and what it means to have the part of you that writes just shut down.

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[allothi]

This is brief -- I'd usually be asleep by this time -- but *hugs* I have my own experiences of what it's like to realise that you'll probably never be well again, though for me it's been much quieter and less eventful, from what I can tell. But, god, it's hard, to realise that you have to learn a whole new way of thinking about your life, and then to find it so hard to learn and understand (or I find it hard) that you can't just do it with one great wrench... *hugs you*

I'm still on LJ, obviously, and now on tumblr -- as elsewhereelse -- though I'm not very interesting or personal there; it's more of any online scrapbook for my own purposes. And you have my email. And if you ever want to talk -- I mean, not just about Stuff, but also if you want someone to chatter to quite inconsequentially, or whatever -- just give me a prod. <3

[jibrailis]

Don't worry about not being here. You have to take care of yourself first, because you're never far from our thoughts and we want nothing but the best for you. And what you say about giving narrative shape to illness and pain, that makes my lower lip shake a little bit, because it's true, it's difficult, sometimes to the point where it's not worth doing it, to try and make sense of what happens to us, to our bodies. I feel like I should say that this post only reconfirms it: you are one of the bravest, most generous, most thoughtful people that I know.

I am mostly on LJ! I can also be reached readily via email. Sometimes I am on Twitter, and sometimes on Gtalk (which I am also bad at).

[breathingbooks]

I was thinking about you the other day and as always was happy to see your post pop up. :)

I really enjoy your thoughts on TV shows and books. I'm mostly here on lj, but I'm on gthingy occasionally (different username) and Tumblr, though the latter's just me dutifully reposting the pretty as a good if too often pajama clad acolyte to aesthetics and a certain actor who shall remain nameless but is (everyone is surprised) terribly, terribly pretty.

[such_heights]

Hello there, Rita! It's so lovely to hear from you!

I'm sorry to hear that things have been regressing so much health-wise, that really sucks. I hope that things manage to at least settle down a bit for you soon so you get a chance to sort through everything.

I am pretty sure you have me on every available social networking platform! :) And, as always, I'm delighted to hear from you in any medium you're comfortable with, and my inbox and my GTalk account are at your disposal. <3333

[aqueousmist]

Rita! I'm happy to hear from you, as always. :)

I'm pretty sure we're connected on all those places, except for Gtalk (sonatael@gmail.com), but from my activity (or rather, lack thereof), you might think I've fallen off the face of the earth. I lurk, evidently, but it would be lovely to keep in touch with you. :) *hugs*