I have great respect for weasels. They are both sneaky and endearing. I want to go to Chicago in the next few months. It is a very important trip. I do not like the idea of being in Chamber Singers this semester, but i realize it's important if i want to learn how to sing. I went to my first screening of Rocky Horror last night, and I was the ( Read more... )

What a silly weekend this was. I spent the entirety of both days pretending to be a servant. I'm not a servant by practice, it's only a hobby really, and so i have to pretend. I go from table to table only putting a smile on my face when certain people see me, because i want them to feel like i'm their best friends in the damn place. I am ( Read more... )

Today has turned out to be family photo day. I found all of the albums from my parents wedding until their separation. I've looked at just about every picture now. This decision will result in me being incredibly emotional for the next few days. It's unavoidable, especially during a week where I've so passionately disdained the way my family ( Read more... )

Something delightful happened this afternoon. I realized for the first time in months that i actually have the potential to be a good drummer. Not just someone who can play 4/4 and 6/8 rock, but someone who's trained to play a drum set. All i did was work on very simple exercises in a drum book. I stayed on one page for a half hour, and just ( Read more... )

i've got about two hours in this morning that i have not decided at all how to spend. I think it's time for my grandmother to die. That's what i have thought the past ten or twenty times that i've seen her. She's not getting anywhere with herself...her physical debilitations are to a point where she can barely comprehend what's around her. Her ( Read more... )

I'm starting to realize that any day i really pursue it, I can find life to be thrilling. It doesnt' take much at all, just some peace and solitude. I laid in the sun on our hard wood deck today for a half hour. It was tremendously uncomfortable. I thought about people who have died from heat. I felt awful for them. It's such a hopeless ( Read more... )

I feel a very strong desire for two things right now. Playing frisbee, and making fuck. I want those things to happen within an hour of each other. I'm not hungry, i took care of that. And i don't really want to smoke anything, i've taken care of that for weeks. I'm very surprised that i'm horny...that hasn't happened in some time. I haven't ( Read more... )

there's a naked man on the run in the woods behind my house. The cops have been searching for him all day. My mother saw a cop in dunkin donuts and asked him, "So, have you got your man yet?" the cop said, "No, ma'am" This is all so funny!! hahaha, a cop car just drove past my window. they're just driving around, hoping that the naked man ( Read more... )

I am getting sick it seems. I have work in a half hour it seems. If i want this night to be bearable, i will have to make it into a game. In this video game, i see how fast i can move to get shit out of a kitchen, and repeat this until i make 150 dollars. If i win, then i go home and collapse into bed. If i lose, i go home and collapse into ( Read more... )

I came up with a great image to use today. It's one of those really catchy ones that you know will stick, like the use of hammers in The Wall. My image is that of vultures. It came from an idea i had of walking past my grandmother's room and seeing vultures on the upstairs bannister staring at the door. Just a few minutes ago i decided that ( Read more... )