Ok, I have to get this all out.  I’m sorry if it clutters up your dash.

My entire life, I have never known my biological father.  What I do know of him, isn’t much.  When I started asking questions about him when I was younger, my mom told me I had an older sister.  That has stuck with me for a long time.  In my household, I was the oldest child ( Read more... )

When I was a year old, my little sister passed away at 7 weeks old from SIDS. Until I was in eighth grade, I never really experienced death, and honestly I didn’t REALLY experience it then. My mom’s father passed away from cancer. But he lived in Minnesota, and I didn’t really know him.

Then in 2004, my grandma who I was so close to, almost died. 4 ( Read more... )

Friendship.  Dictionary.com describes it as

friend  (frɛnd)  - n1.a person known well to another and regarded with liking,affection, and loyalty; an intimate2.an acquaintance or associate3.an ally in a fight or cause; supporter4.a fellow member of a party, society, etc5.

a patron or supporter: a friend of the opera

How do you describe it?

When I was ( Read more... )

So, I am moving out of my parent's house this weekend ( Read more... )

So, I know its been forever since I've updated this.  Honestly the only person I know who still uses it is Kay.  And she already knows pretty much everything I'm about to say.  I just need to get all of this out ( Read more... )

We cannot live our life and become who we want to be if we are running away from our lives and ourselves. The only way we can find out who we are is if we face our fears and confront our challenges, fighting them head on, one battle at a time. Otherwise, we will never see in ourselves the good traits we have; instead, we'll always remain a prisoner ( Read more... )

So last night I stayed up until 530 or so, reading a lot of my old posts, and israel's old posts. it was so weird to travel down memory lane like that. I remembered a lot of stuff that i havent thought about in a long time. When he wrote, he was always so vivid with the details, and its crazy how i remembered every one of them. It got me ( Read more... )

A whole SHIT LOAD has changed ( Read more... )

SHE HAS KIDS ( Read more... )

everything i’m dying to tell you
is everything i wish you'd say.

GOD.  This is so hard.  I wish, for once, something in my life could be easy, simple.  but no.  I usually strive to be in difficult situations, because I feel that much more proud of myself when I over come them.  but this...why can't it just be easy?  I wish you would just come to me ( Read more... )