IM BACK.... and at a whopping 147lbs!!!!!

"Where I am today, is where my mind put me. And where I'll be tomorrow is where my mind put me." - Billy Banks (from Billy's bootcamp and Taebo)

i barely ate yesterday and managed to end up at 139??? wtf i was at 137.

i want to lose 6-8 lbs by friday for when i go home.  =(

I've been gone for so long.
Forgive me.
I'm back. Again. I saw my thighs in the mirror today. All cellulite looking and such... made me want to puke. and a kid i work with called me a fat ass.  Both are my motivation to get back to where i was. get back on track to where i want to be.

cw -138
hw -154
gw1-125 (oct 22nd) its the day before my

im a fat fuck.... i think im gonna buy a cleanse so i can lose a few pounds in waste and crap.... then i need to schedule a fast... and actually stick to it... or at least try harder ( Read more... )

i had wendys last night like after midnight.... FUCK... weighed 135 today (2 more lbs than i did)... then today i ate again!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHAT THE F**K!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

cant even go a day... im such a screw up!

enough said!

just ate for the first time today... since i slept til 3, which i didnt mind bc i figure the longer i sleep the less ill eat ( Read more... )

 idk how much i weigh today... i know its no more than 134 but i snacked right before bed last night and didnt digest it all during sleep... so i weighed more ... after i ate this afternoon like 5 hrs after waking up i only weighed 135 so id say i didnt gain at least bc that will go down after i digest and go to the bathroom hahahaha ( Read more... )

well i somehow managed to get down to 134lbs in a day... idk how i managed that one haha

umm still depressed about being away from home i was fine last night and then out of no where this afternoon i started like bawling my eyes out....=(

im sure ill end up mantaining this weight for forever... haha or at least til i have kids and get fat!

Sorry I've been gone so long ( Read more... )

my fourth thinspo video.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B-IjkR4HCT0