ok im back. we rented the perfect score ( Read more... )

ok so the funeral was today, and surprisingly, i didnt cry. It was weird. it was like i was drained of all emotions. when i spoke, i shared no emotion. when i sang my song, i showed no emotion like i normally do when i sing something ive written. I tried, i tried to show emotion, but it wouldnt come. I tried to make myself cry, but it couldnt. ( Read more... )

i wrote a song. i lost it though. il post it when i find it ( Read more... )

Ok i didnt sleep at all last night. i couldnt. i had so many emotions. like i was angry because he left so quickly, but im angry at myself for cursing him so many times, wishing he would just....die. and now he has, and i dont feel any better. Even though that man ruined my life, ruined my family, and ruined so much more, and even though every blow ( Read more... )

ok so my dad died like an hour ago. i just got home from the hospital. im writing because i probably wont be updateing for awhile and i didnt want all my faithful readers to wonder what happened to me. alright well, i dont know what my future holds, i just know im at the very bottom, and theres no where to go but up.

JUST to let everyone know, those last few entries were difinatly not me. I was at Arther Smith Park playing with my band ( Read more... )

Happy fourth of july everyone ( Read more... )

ok i have schedualed a date as to when i will be writing of my great nationwide adventures. it will be july 5. yes ( Read more... )

today i went to the mall with jamie, and we got so much stuff, he got some shirts, i got some shirts, i got this awesome poster for my room...but i dont know where to put it because you cant even see my walls theres so much stuff on them. today was a pretty normal day. i watched tv alot. and i ate food. my mom has been working. its kind of getting ( Read more... )

i feel like taking something heavy and throwing it at my sisters head right now. she makes me so mad. like i really wish i didnt have a name that sounded like hers. aiden. adrian. im bored..and im hungry..really hungry. im going on a cruise with jamie and his family sometime soon. i dont know when though. oh and when cory comes up here, it going to ( Read more... )