More Drunk Winning.

[warlockd]

Here I am at Furry Festa.  Its sad but good?   Its an odd feeling.  You can see the loanlesness in some peoples eyes.  On the sides, sitting  by themselves, just wating for someone to talk to.  I can barily do that and only once I have a few drinks in me, I have the confidance to say "Fuck it, let me talk to that person

Comments

[kittiekittiekat]

I think so many experience this.  I go through it constantly it's even worse when one is amongst a group of friends and still feels the loneliness. I've honestly withdrawn from social situations so I don't have to be reminded of the loneliness of public situations. Sorry you are feeling this though.

[warlockd]

Maybe that's why I haven't been going out as often. I want to go out but don't like feeling this bad so subconsciously I don't want to leave my room:P

Its ok, The drinking was good and had some good talks with friends. Still, kind of wish I could handle it better.

[slr2moons]

I know how you feel. And also about the mask, b/c I can be much more relaxed and open behind my computer and typing than in person

[warlockd]

Hah I know:P I think I was only able to do that because my other friend was interested in you, that I should apologize for:P

I should do this more it just feels like I have a near axiatiy attack every time I try. Its why I tend to only drink in social situations, it lets me not worry so much on what I should/should not say and just be myself. On the other side, the second I get just a little sober, I panic and want to run:P

Strangely, it doesn't affect me as bad as being with a friend and go to a strange place. Feels like I have some kind of support line. Eh, its easier for me to program in C++ than figure stuff like this out:P

[wyldside]

*hugs* Miss ya dude

[warlockd]

Oh hey! Whats up!