college is such a paradox of fun and stress ( Read more... )

i dont know what to do ( Read more... )

i find it interesting that through a lifetime seeking the approval of my parents, the one person that has successfully inspired me to be great was a high school teacher.

jeez.
its a lot of work taking care of your body.

Spare no tears
Just pity and fear
And I recall
The push more than the fall.

i'll be counting up my demons, hoping everything's not lost.

im jittery from too much coffee.

i want to be a friendly person.
i mean, friendly from the get go.

im not very self motivated, ive discovered.

summer has sucked so far.

- work
- excercise
- eat healthy
- mrs dalloway
- the israel lobby
- orientalism
- violin

to be continued

i'm about to call it quits when i never really began.

futility is the order of the day.im on my way to a destination with no idea of when i will get there ( Read more... )

when the ending comes, the full regret will seem obscure.

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impatient.
irritable.
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i miss those days when i had control over my surroundings.
when people thought what i wanted them to think about me.

the words i say arent meant for anyone.____________ ( Read more... )

L'impression de séperation est totale; je suis désormais prisionnier en moi-même. Elle n'aura pas lieu, la fusion sublime; le but de la vie est manqué. Il est deux heures de l'après-midi.