I am just so disappointed. I try not to get my hopes up, I tell myself it will be just like all the other times and I shouldn't expect this time to be any different. I tell myself I won't know until the last second, but in the back of my mind, I do get my hopes up; I do get excited. It is human nature to do so and human nature to say, well, maybe ( Read more... )

When you have to find yourself all over again ( Read more... )

I remember my first trip to a cafe. I was fourteen or fifteen and loved to make my own little coffee concoctions in the morning before school. I would take the coffee my dad made and add all kinds of stuff to it-milk, sugar, cinnamon, whipped cream-you name it and I probably put it in my coffee. Seeing my love of coffee, my best friend Hotaru ( Read more... )

So, it's been a really long time since I've written in this. I also decided to unlink it from my Facebook because there are just too many people, including family, that I would rather not have reading anything. I feel like I don't have anything online anymore that just a few friends might read where I can post my thoughts. Honestly, I don't really ( Read more... )

It's FERRET DAY. Yes, this day has finally come. I have been waiting a really long time for this to happen. I tried as hard as I could to not talk about it too much because Erika is not as excited as I am. FERRETS!!! FERRETS!!!! FERRRREEEEEETTTTSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Okay, I think I got it out of my system....probably not but thats okay. Anyway, a ( Read more... )

I really wish I could do all the things that make you happy. I wish I could say the right thing, think the right thing, do the right thing above all. I suppose nobody cares for my childlike outlook on life anymore. I suppose it is time to grow up and fall into the monotony of adulthood. Get up, go to work, come home, eat dinner, go to bed. This is ( Read more... )

So the 21st birthday is next Tuesday (17th) and anybody that wants to come out is invited :D

Okay, so I have started the process of cleaning my room (with MUCH help from my Erika). The big job was finally ditching my lovely piles of clothes from which i magically pull whatever clothes I need from. I'm feeling like that isn't the idea for the future---I need to learn to use drawers again, although I feel like they will become their own mini ( Read more... )

today is a sucky day. I always stupidly look foward to things and they dont happen. I just shouldnt expect things, I know, but I do anyway. And, also, every time I try to make amends for mistakes I made, it seems like i am being ignored or pushed away. I wont bother to discuss the rest of the shit going on in my head right now. It's probably ( Read more... )

seriously Descent is the scariest movie ever.