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its all around me, its all around me!!!

What is?

My belt

WHY WONT YOU JUST FUCKING GO AWAY! DO NOT EXIST ANYMORE! I THOUGHT YOU WERE GONE... THREE TIMES NOW! BUT YOU JUST KEEP FUCKING COMING BACK, I HATE YOU MORE THAN ANY SINGLE OTHER THING ON THIS PLANET, MORE THAN THAT GUY IN PITTSBURGH, MORE THAN ANYTHING! I DONT SCREAM VERY OFTEN OUTSIDE OF MY SONGS, BUT IM SCREAMING THIS WHOLE FUCKING THING.... GO ( Read more... )

There isnt a day that goes by where i dont miss you terribly, i say you forget that idiot who has left you twice AND you admit it wouldnt work, and come back to someone who TRULY cares for you ( Read more... )

im sick of being a whiney bitch and always complaining and crying, im gonna pretend that everything is okay, even though im really going crazy and honestly hate living without you. Me complaining and crying cant be attractive, and seeing as i want you, thats bad for business, so i guess ill hide myself again, and pretend that im okay ( Read more... )

Vacuumm repair man: "Here ya go, it seems like there was a half eaten meatball stuck in the intake"

Me: "Well, did you save it?"

Repair man: "The meatball? .... no"

Me: "you bastard"

March 2nd..... Bah

Sorry it has to be this way, but it does, maybe when you stop lying to yourself...... but whatever, you dont give a fuck, what did i expect? you never fucking cared. Why should you care? you have other good friends, im losing my only love, my best friend, the only person i can confide in, its fucking stupid. WHAT THE FUCK!!!!

You are lying to yourself, just like you had been doing. Youve told me that so many times, and every time was a lie, im not going to believe it this time. I can see it when you look at me too, and then you look away, EVERY SINGLE TIME, trying to not let me see it in your eyes, but i do. Your scared, so am i. Your not ready, neither am i. but you ( Read more... )

you know its a shitty night when your smile cant even make it better

I cant keep going like this for much longer, something has to change soon, i dont know what yet, but something has to change ( Read more... )