Countdown to Julie Roberts: 8 days ( Read more... )

Ok, first, to explain the song, it's the last song that was playing when I turned my car off about ten minutes ago, so it's still stuck in my head, and so, though it doesn't really relate to this post, I'm singing it anyway. So, on to my day. As you can tell by the title, things have changed, mostly because I made them. Ok, so mostly because my ( Read more... )

The screaming and hysterical sobbing inside of my head has gotten so loud that I can no longer hide it on the outside. It pours out of my eyes so that even a slight glance reveals my pain to those who look my way. Kory looked me in the eyes today and asked me what was wrong, and all I could do was stare back. He probably thought it was just me ( Read more... )

A weekend of laughs and tears is winding down. Friday was wonderful! I hung out with Kory and Jacob before class and it was good times as usual. As we sat out in back circle a Transy guy started mowing up all the beautiful leaves that we had been watching roll across the grass (it was real windy) and we all agreed that it was stupid and ( Read more... )

Well, I think I may successfully be leaning toward the happy side. I still feel kinda weird, kind of inbetween, but more content than yesterday. No tears today. Oh I cried my eyes out writing in this journal yesterday. But it was okay, because right after that I went to see the play and it was fabulous and made me laugh so hard. And I am so ( Read more... )

The way I feel right now, well let's just say I couldn't really find the right word for it in the mood list. I'm not necessarily sad, but not really happy either. I don't know, maybe numb is the right word for it. I'm exhausted, in so many ways. Literally, because my sleep debt is now totaling in the billions, and emotionally for reasons not ( Read more... )

Well, mounting stress levels and high school drama has reduced the goofy/happy state I had finally found, but I'm determined to get it back because I personally feel I'm much more likable by myself and other people when I'm in that state of mind. That and if other people want to create drama in their own lives and make things harder on themselves ( Read more... )

Exhaustion: the general present state of Becky's mind and body. Go on, look it up in the dictionary if you don't believe me, haha! Wow, what an unproductive weekend. I was so set on getting a bunch of homework done on Saturday, and it sure didn't happen. I got my 6 page paper done today in less than 3 hours, which was nice, especially since I ( Read more... )

Well today, (Thursday, I haven't gone to bed yet), started off not so great, but I think it was just my mood matching the weather, because I started to feel better after the sun came out. That and I don't feel very well. Who cares, the weekend is here! Anyway, I got to take an hour long nap, and oh how I missed taking naps, they're beautiful! I ( Read more... )

Helloooooooo! (In my best Mrs. Doubtfire impression, heehee). Today has been a fabulous day! I've been so hyper and goofy, and damn it feels good to be a gangsta! Haha, Office Space is a wonderful movie. :) Anywho, what I was really going to say is it feels good to be back to my goofy self. I've been in a slump for about a year now, but I'm ( Read more... )