i deleted my journal. then paniced and activated it again. i don't want this journal anymore, but i'm not ready to get rid of the memories.

add my new journal =]

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___anddarling

i remember thanksgiving last year, how many things i had to be thankful for.
that's not the case this year.

i am ungrounded.

did something really stupid lastnight.

stayed home from school again today.

i hate winter.

need out of the house as much as possiable.

call me.

i need to start going to school.

bff.

( Read more... )

"I want to run or die or get fucked up. I want to be blind and dumb and have no heart."

I came home from school early to sleep and read and watch unsloved mysteries.
I feel beyond terrible.
I'm so sick of everything, and everyone, and myself.
So i'm going to bed.

dickens starts soon. i have to decide if i want to work it again by the end of this week. i probably won't. does anybody want to work with me?

also; i'm thinking i need new friends.

lastnight i realized how much everything has changed, how many people i used to be so close to are strangers. it was depressing. i had to wake up at 6 to be at the hospital at 7 to get my blood work done. they took so much and i got dizy and wanted to puke. i came home and slept for a few hours and then got my hair done. it's not much different, ( Read more... )

i'm really content with things. i'm finally getting all my shit straight. this will probably be different tomorrow, but as of right now i know what i want (or at least what i DO NOT want)... and that's a good feeling ( Read more... )

i'm thinking i should stay in bed until march, anyone down? i hate winter, and the cold.
( prescription drugs and photographs, of lonliness and nervous laughs )

i really wish i knew what was wrong with me.
i'm stressed out. too much shit going on.