okay god damn it. why is it that. i go from a messy breakup with like. no hope for any more boys this summer. and then two days later i have 4 boys. that all want to tap my hot ass. haha. just kidding. but no really. i went to a hardcore show with rachel last night (-blush- yay!). and her friend kevin has a crush on me apparently. and she's like ( Read more... )

so i already wrote this once. and it got effing deleted so here it goes again. i'm so fucking mad that i didn't even get a chance to say how i felt. he just tells me he wants something more casual that i'm too serious. and he's a pussy about and goes a week without talking to me. before saying it. it's all bull anyways. i know it was really about ( Read more... )

he holds my hand. and opens the door. and turns on country in his car just for me. and makes me smile. and dances with me. and worries about me. and tells me i'm pretty. it's lovely.http://photobucket.com/albums/

i am all confused right now. i'm in boston. and i saw matt last night. and did exactly what he said we couldn't. it made me all confused about this whole thing. i adore him. but i know it isn't going to work. i live a million miles away. and it makes things all funky. and i dunno. i'm tired of being alone....bleh. whatever. lj is for whining. so ( Read more... )

ohio is good. things haven't sucked so far. erin is here. and hopefully i'll be going to tiffin soon. dunno...i'm feeling pretty good.

to prove i can survive without you......anyways. yeah. things have been crazy lately. just fun. spent most of my vacation with matt, marie, and jay. it was good times. i dunno. i wish i could have spent more time with certain other people. but what can you do. things are kinda fucked up in the boy department. i think someone should lock boys away! ( Read more... )

so it's been weird lately. i hung out with nate, fusco and bryan on thursday. that was crazy. it was like old times. i love those kids. and missed them a lot. i'm glad we're on..speaking terms again. but yeah i hung with matt thursday and sunday too. that was cool. umm...today i hung with cobby. -shrug-. i dunno. nothing...interesting. christmas ( Read more... )

i move one month from today. which is scary but exciting. i'm really...pissed off at the world these days. i'm desperately hoping a change of scenery will help me out. my grades have fallen this semester too. i think partly it is because i'm not with nate anymore. that added a great amount of structure to my life surpisingly enough. i came home. ( Read more... )

this weekend was interesting to say the very least. friday jackie, gina, bean and i went out. we cruised a bit and got some food. we're just weird. it was fun though. and then last night eileen and i went to connecticut. hahaha. oh what an adventure that was. we met up with matt and jay and went to party at ecsu. it was...interesting to say the ( Read more... )

this weekend was fun. i saw tim mcgraw on friday. and the warren brothers opened. it was an awesome show. the warren brothers are hilarious. tim was sick, but still amazing. i had fun. and marie and i took a limo which was very nice. saturday. marie and i went to a wedding and babysat some kids. they were cute, but made me glad i don't have a ( Read more... )