Hissing and spitting does not even begin to cover it. I want blood, death, gore and all that goes with it. I want to see the pain in their eyes as they are ripped out. Hell, turn em around and let em look at their own pain. Then eat them ( Read more... )

Gods. It's like everything is in a swirling upheaval. I'm not sure I have any control left in me or if I've gone totally off the deep end. Nothing is as it seems, nothing is as it should be, and I'm just being swept away for the ride, too afraid to think it all out. I need my logic back ( Read more... )

I honestly don't know what to do anymore. It's just gotten to seriously be too much ( Read more... )

I gonna have to quit my job.
Just another one I believed when they said 'trust me'.

I really wanted to be alone tonight.

Reading another entry that sounded too close to a lot of what I been trying to avoid thinking. Except, my song is "Creep". I don't think I care if I'm smart, or beautiful or sociable or any of that. Not that I am, but it's not what defines me. I just want to be special, remembered, worth something. Heh, maybe if I did care about the others, I ( Read more... )

I was going to bed early tonight. So much for thinking ahead. After my fit of the dismals yesterday, today should have been a treat. I got paid, paid off all my bills (mostly) and have something left. I could save, or get something for myself, for cheering. But, no...I spent it all on others, and it felt good. For me to buy for me would ( Read more... )

It's days like today when I really dislike myself and what I've become. Digging into the old coffee cans for 300 pennies to make sure I have gas/food/whatever till tomorrow am when my deposit goes in. And, hard as I try to stop it, or reason it away, my mind cannot help going back to all the things I've done for others. And wondering why it ( Read more... )

Ever feel trapped and contained? And yet, also being torn apart by outside forces? Every day feels like a constant struggle with new revelations and meanings. I really don't know if I just know nothing, or far too much. Simplicity would be to go back to believing there is inherent good in all people, it just needs to be reached, and believed ( Read more... )

Momentarily affected by lyrics. Does anything last? Only if shared.

Lyrics: All That Remains, "Behind Silence and Solitude"

( When I need to remember why... )