i've truly concluded that i am not going to prom. i just don't care anymore. you may think i'm kidding but i'm not. i'm not going i really don't care. it's my birthday tomorrow and i'm miserable. what a fun day it's going to be. not.

what do i want for my birthday?

...to be happy i guess...

so this week started out with having to bury a woman i grew up with and who helped take care of me and it was horrible ( Read more... )

so... broken toe, two jammed fingers, and maybe mono... this is just fan-freakin-tastic. NOT. so pissed off, like i'm soooo pissed!!!!

i can't take this waiting game anymore, it's driving me insane. everyday i tip toe to my mail box afraid that i will get a rejection letter and it sucks just not knowing like i feel like i'm waiting for nothing ( Read more... )

i have never i my life wished more than right now that i was in kindergarten again. that i was back in my little apartment at 223 C Faller Dr. in New Milford and i was walking across the parking lot to kindergarten. i wish i could just go back to the easy days. the days of coloring books and nap time. in kindergarten i was happy. i was naive. i was ( Read more... )

i never get attached. i really never do. ever! so why now? i need to get over it but for some stupid reason i cant. i cant get him out of my head! this blows. i need to stop. but i cant

i'm exhausted ( Read more... )

I CAN'T STUDY ANYMORE!! I CAN'T STUDY ANYMORE!! I CAN'T STUDY ANYMORE!! I CAN'T STUDY ANYMORE!! I CAN'T STUDY ANYMORE!! I CAN'T STUDY ANYMORE!!I CAN'T STUDY ANYMORE!! I CAN'T STUDY ANYMORE!!I CAN'T STUDY ANYMORE!! I CAN'T STUDY ANYMORE!!I CAN'T STUDY ANYMORE!! I CAN'T STUDY ANYMORE!!I CAN'T STUDY ANYMORE!! I CAN'T STUDY ANYMORE!!I CAN'T STUDY ( Read more... )

R.I.P.