the internet is dead to me.

every time i doubt him and my defense mechanism kicks in, he comes out of nowhere to reassure me in a big way. the mind games that i instinctively want to engage in for fear of being hurt are never needed with this one. it seems like every time i get into one of these weird moods and i want to throw my phone out the window because everything i see ( Read more... )

i'm so fucking happy with everyone in my life. new people have been walking in and useless people have been walking out, and it couldn't be more perfect. miles don't mean anything with friends like these. we're gonna do it right this time.

can i just be in la already?

i haven't forgotten about you, just because i got a tumblr. i am beginning to realize more and more everyday the odd relationship i have with my all of my friends. it's ridiculous really, and has changed my outlook on so many things. i've always felt like it was easier to sit back comfortably and watch bridges burn, than to try to put out the fire ( Read more... )

it's been a month and it's finally done. no more traveling, no more house guests, no more entertaining, no more humoring. time spent alone is all i have craved lately and more than ever today. i guess i didn't spend enough time on that bottom tier of despair. someone somewhere feels like i have more to learn and more to accomplish. it's a hard road ( Read more... )

As days pass, your presence is unsettling ( Read more... )

think about what you threw it away for. think about what you did and what you gained. and then tell me that if you were in my position, you would forgive yourself. or even harder still, that you could ever forget the betrayal that occurred and live the days as if nothing happened.

i wanted to give you the patience i thought you needed, but i couldn’t help to feel ashamed when I begged and pleaded. for you to try and understand that i gave all i had ( Read more... )

You're making me regret you. You're just like the rest of them.

I go back to December all the time.

Its crazy how closely I find myself relating to parts of Eternal Sunshine. It might just be the week, but everything is making me want to rip my hair out. I can't make up my mind about anything and every little thing has me second guessing relationships and loyalties.

Please don't make me regret you being here.