2009 began with urgency as i tried to regain my mental stability, physical health, and emotional independence. changing my medication in january made a huge difference, but i still thought seeing a therapist would be helpful to me in getting over a badly broken heart and a pesky eating disorder. unfortunately, i got suckered into going to a ( Read more... )

as my life undergoes upheaval and i rapidly approach the onset of major transitions, i find myself at times, and often miserably, wholly concerned with the details of my past; i am speaking in particular about the outrageously unjust and senseless death of my best friend, arthur, over six years ago, which had, until recently, receded to the ( Read more... )

i spent the near-entirety of my last therapy session in tears, spouting for 45 minutes my doubts fears concerns anxieties disappointments frustrations confusions and so-forth, only to have my therapist tell me, very frankly, after i was finished, "i think you're just growing up."

#17: remember that the best relationship is one in which your love for each other exceeds your need for each other

i let everything get a little out of balance over break. now i'm readjusting and considering leaving this house for something different/better. i'm almost done with school and i can't wait til i don't have to do homework anymore!

hot water ( Read more... )

in the process of finding a new roommate. posted on a couple online classifieds and was initially discouraged when i only heard back from a couple dudes in their 30s and a few others who were either too lackadaisical or too urgent. but finally after a few anxious days i got a response from a girl who was pleasantly eager and apparently adorable, so ( Read more... )

halloween was theatrical. my costume looked rad and gordo's haunted house/party was a raging success. i had tons of fun grabbing ankles, but no fun telling everyone that i was NOT dressed up as the chick from "the fifth element". oh well. the weekend came to a nice close but the calm didn't last long. gordo and i fought again and i hated every ( Read more... )

the last few days i've been suffering some gnarly bad luck. thankfully i've got sweet souls who help me out in my time of need. my car is broken and tomorrow it's going to rain. muni costs two bucks one and i won't want to pay it. my evening escaped me and i didn't do anything, really, except read an article for class about poverty. my period ( Read more... )

might i be some case study?
all the sucralose and aspartame...
wikipedia says "no"!
oooooh boy i'll sleep well tonight!
like so many other nights.....
8 miles in the morning
one way, then the other.
WHO WANTS TO DANCE!?

i spent the weekend where my boyfriend grew up and it was delicately romantic. we celebrated his parents' silver anniversary with about eighty others in their terraced ocean beach back yard. we swam in the ocean and drove with the top down on his pop's convertible smartcar. i met important people in his life and we flipped through photo albums. i ( Read more... )