Yesterday I woke up around 1pm. I cheacked the caller ID and there was a number I didn't recondize. They called at like 9am so I was curious who it was, it isn't a number anyone would be calling from for my grandma so I asked her who called. She said it was Hope. My feelings were still really hurt from the shit that happened w/ Vic(RIP nugga, there ( Read more... )

So I called Rob at 10:30am just incase he didn't get locked up and he answered. :) He said he was leaving the public defenders office, his court date got postponed thank God. He asked me wht I was doin today and I was like "chillin wit ur punk ass hopefully" and he was like "aww, i'm that special? Go on, say it. Say Rob, you're that specail that I ( Read more... )

So yesterday Genia and I toured a job corps campus. It looked like a jail. I hated it. I don't want to go. Being thrown into a situation where you have to live with 300 or 400 people you've never met a day in your life and sleep in a room with 3 other girls you don't know is intimidating. Especially if You're one of 3 white girls in the whole ( Read more... )

Certain cirumstances have lead me to wonder where Jay's loyalties lie. Well instead of talking about it, I'll post the IM... it explains most of it ( Read more... )

No matter how many people tell you they're ur homegurl/homeboy for life don't believe them. Shit all changed in one moment. One second. And it makes me wonder, can you change destiny? If I wouldn't have given it to him would he still be here today? If I had held on to it one more day... or 12 more hours would things be the way they are now? Would ( Read more... )

So I had another one of those nightmares where my grandma died. This one was diffrent though becasue I wasn't at her funeral. I had just found out she died and I went across the street behind 55 and called Ricky. Of course he didn't answer so I left a message crying so hard I didn't think he'd be able to make out what I was saying. "My grandma just ( Read more... )

So I was online talking to one of my friends last night and just cracked. I'm so tired of having the guys I like not like me back. I'm tired of being alone. I am sooo done with this shit. Maby I care too much... Maby I try too hard. I give up. I don't care anymore. I've done anything I can possibly think of to get a guy I'm interested in... I'm ( Read more... )

got wasted, lost my phone, ricky passed out on the couch, hope went home, I wake up all by myself... AGAIN.

I'm really hating my life this weekend.

Too lonely.

So Hope came down this weekend, we had fun. We got drunk yesterday afternoon b4 she went back to job corps. I'm happy she came home. My grandparents leave for their trip on Thursday. I'm excited. It should be interesting. I'm mad at jay, he didn't come see Hope while she was home this weekend, all he did was promise he'd come and then never show up ( Read more... )

So Tiff had her baby thismorning, at 11:03. He's 5 pounds 13 oz and I was told by lil' Lewis that he's got alot of hair. I'm about to be on my way to Siani to see Tiff and the baby. Ironicly today is my grandma's b-day too. They're dropping me off and going out to eat for mommom's b-day and afterwards they'll pick me up. I'm excited, I can't waite ( Read more... )