i love how i lie to myself to make me feel better ( Read more... )

even if it started out bad, it came out to be really fun, i was actually happy for like 10 minutes. i loved every minute of it, because i knew it was the pookie i first met on that wednesday night. i knew it was the real pookie. i wish it was always like that. not yelling, no additude, nothing like that. i loved every single minute of it. i loved ( Read more... )

thinking this would be easy. its not. for him at least it what hes showing me. i dont care if he gets mad that im writting this, i have feelings to and they shouldnt be hurt by someone who once loved me. who knows if he still does. he doesnt tell me, thats why i dont understand him. thats the only reason, he should be telling me what he feels, not ( Read more... )

never knew itd be this hard..

its hard even writing this and im not gonna write much because i know ill break down and cry and thats something i can not do. everything hurts. my legs hurt just from crossing my legs. i sleep more so the day goes by faster. im eating less and today alone all i ate was medium fries (which i split in half throughout ( Read more... )

Finally got my fabric and I found the color I was looking for, so excited ( Read more... )

Today, things just went ... weird ( Read more... )

I acutally need to start taking my medication ( Read more... )

Things could never be better :o) okay, saturday could of gone better..

+ Saturday.. I was supposed to go to the city to get fabric for my dress, told my mother that I was going and that I wanted money to get fabric, told her friday and after I came back from church I called mom and she said that she didnt have it and that she wasnt close to the ( Read more... )

Sick, for 2 days.. with a cold. Sucks a whole lot ( Read more... )

Haven't written in a while, figured I would.

+ Today Jaymie wasn't feeling good and she siad she had a lot of problems so she asked me to skip Boces. We talked but there wasn't much I could do. Went to see a movie, saw 16 blocks. It was good.

+ Schools sucks, as usual. Senior Celebrity "afternoon", makes me want to laugh.. HAHAHAHAHA. Wonder ( Read more... )