I'm at peace, even with that little empty tingle in my gut that I feel every time he's at a distance. You can't feel completely connected to someone without missing them once in a while.

"says she's close to understanding Jesus, and she knows she's a more than just a little misunderstood, she has trouble acting normal when she's nervous."

It's been a while since i've felt well enough to sit down and pour out all the feelings that deceitfully try to conceal themselves within me. Through the stress I knew I would inquire with this step in my life, to the daily pressure on the soles of my feet, I have found an overwhelming sense of inspiration in the last few days. Aside from God, most ( Read more... )

there are demons I need to learn how to let go of.

I need everyone to let me go a little bit. I'm not 16 anymore.

now you know me as everyone else knows me.

I have so much to say but I have no idea how to even begin to explain it to anyone else. I've always been good at hiding everything that flickers between my heart and my mind. When you've lived twenty years in silence it's hard to learn the language, they are all so foreign to me.

I tell my fingers to bend but they sit still and fragile. I tell my heart to mend but it sits bitter and closed in. I tell my mind to think of anything but the destruction but it does not comprehend.

I'm in need of a vacation from everything.

Listen: I do not wish to continue in such a blurred state as this, I do not wish to become increasingly transparent, but when it comes down to the cut and dry, what is there for me to say to anyone? In which areas should I let people devour my existance so that they may, for two moments or less, feel as if they know and understand me? If I were to ( Read more... )

call it quits, just breathe.

Just a thought or three ( Read more... )