its the end of the world as we know it, but i dont feel fine. my rachel is gone, and it hasnt really hit me fully yet. we are devising ways to get her to come back as often as possible. i am sad.

another valentines day. sure, joey is there - somewhere. not like it does me any good really. im hungry and tired and frustrated. i couldnt sleep all night cause there was too much on my mind. i wrote in my paper journal and cried a little bit. it didnt help. sheer will got me to sleep around 7 am. i was supposed to be up earlier, but 1230 is when ( Read more... )

so i am sure that my dad is stalking me. what does he want me to say? he wants me to be some sort of something that i dont feel like being right now. thats right a responsible adult. its just not one of my current goals. i need to find a job, i need to do some homework and the rest will come later. thats just what it is right now. i do need to get ( Read more... )

so ive been scared/upset about a lot of things lately. not upset mad or upset sad really, but just on my mind and kinda plagueing my every day thoughts. life is changing. and change is hard ( Read more... )

so this morning mel and i were waiting for the bus and she is just sitting there talking away and i look past her just looking around and what do you think i saw? a naked man. thats right, a naked man. it was super cold, id say in the 40s or there aboots (btw i think im going to start speaking canadian from now on cause its the sexiest language ( Read more... )

so... my life as of right now. im working really hard at not being an optimist, i just need some more suck wad sort of motivatin. someone is going to tell me that i suck, or that i should just give up at everything, or joey needs to call and tell me that he doesnt know what he ever saw in me and then life as a pessimist will be solidified. im going ( Read more... )

so i hope that i get the job at friendlys, but wait, im a pessimist now so its pointless cause if i get my hopes up i know its all just going to end so sadly and everything will be even worse than it was before. let me be surprised just one time and not hate everything that i have come to expect ( Read more... )

so tim hinted around that he or marissa read our livejournals. i hope he does so he knows what all of his employees think of him. its all very rediculous to me. it could be marissa because her roommate - uh hum -has a lj im pretty sure and scans the pages for some good gossip. its just all too convienient. i totally think its marissa cause tim ( Read more... )

i had it, and lost it. manoli the hot hot hot hot hot hot hot hot hot hot hot hot hot hot very attractive bicycle taxi man was in my psysio psych class and he dropped it. for one day he sat next to me and we talked in class. oh well. not like i would ever do anything there as evidenced by my lack of doing anything. oh well ( Read more... )

ok. here is laura dee brooks up and functioning at 920 am having already gone to class. has the world turned upside down? well it has for sure today at least. i want to keep up this melarchy. im determined to not suck ass this term. i could have got my scholarships back in time for this term if i didnt suck so much. that will not happen again ( Read more... )