I do this thing where, if i care a lot about what someone thinks about me, I don't act like myself around them. It's not that I don't want to, its just I can't help it. i get more reserved, or awkward, and not as leah-y. It drives me crazy. I'm normally not really the kind of person to care much about what other people think (i mean, i do, everyone ( Read more... )

so i didnt have menigitis, just the flu and a sinus infection ( Read more... )

has been pretty boring. I despise this town. without my friends here, (excluding jenny matt and nicole, and amelia even though i never see her)this place sucks ass even more than it used to. I'm so used to being surrounded by people all the time, and just walking like 5 feet and have a huge number of people available to entertain me. and then i ( Read more... )

I know procrastinating isn't a mood...but thats what I'm doing ( Read more... )

so i went to the masquarade, it was fun, but not that fun. it was such a hippie party. I've noticed that I hang out with alot of hippies up here. must be the area ( Read more... )

went back to benicia yesterday. it was weird. I saw my parents...weird. I went to a party with the same old benicia people, and it was weird. I enjoyed myself, mmfm played, they were good, got to see some old friends, but it just felt weird. even sleeping my my bed last night didnt seem right. Its kind of disconcerting when your home feels...not ( Read more... )

I really don't enjoy my voice teacher. she is lame, and makes me sing lame things that I don't sound good on. also she is about a foot and a half taller than me, and has a man voice. scary. I do not want to sing opera!!! and she does this thing called Felden Christ, and its like weird breathing excercises and she made me lay on this felden christ ( Read more... )

I've been in a meloncholy mood for the past couple of days. I feel unmotivated and unattractive, and just tired ( Read more... )

its good, for the most part. I was gonna go into detail, but I've realized theres just too much to write. and no one cares probably. I'm basically happy, schools going well, I've made alot of new friends, there are boys (2!) in my life, my room isn't horribly smelly, I'm living off campus next year, and I finally feel like i belong here. I'm ( Read more... )

my lame night got better.

I think I'm gonna be living off campus next year, with my friends dillon and Anika and one more person in a super cool house. I really hope it works out, because living on campus isnt that fun, and I love those kids. yaaaaaaaay!

plus dillons in a fraternity, so we'll probably have hella parties. whoop whoop.