its time for another one of those self-realization posts again ( Read more... )

i had a friend up in pullman who's motto was "fuck fear" and i think i am going to follow in her footsteps. the only reason for not doing something should be morals or ethics... not because im afraid of it or what people may think of me, so fuck fear. there are too many things i want to do and experience and fear is no longer an excuse of what i ( Read more... )

we talked today for 3 hours. based on our messanging conversations i knew he was having a tough time so i called him and he cried on the phone to me for an hour (wasnt crying the whole time but we were talking about what was wrong). we get each other. he told me he is the closest to me than anyone else in the world. it only makes me like him more. ( Read more... )

this sounds retarded but... im starting to like who i am becoming and actually feel like i have some good direction. i hope it doesnt all go to shit haha

things are finally feeling on track. after what seemed to be the worst three weeks of my life i am feeling content. im taking charge and finally getting help. therapy is not all bad, its like talking to your friends but this person has an actual answer to your problems. its kind of nice to get closure on a few things. im definitely not 100% better ( Read more... )

well i thought that going into counseling and taking the first steps was supposed to make me feel better but now i feel more out of control than ever. i know me confessing my problems is a little overwhelming for someone to hear... i get that.... thats why its taken me so long to do it and when i finally did to brian he ran away. that made me more ( Read more... )

these past few days have required a lot of reflection on my part about what i want, who i want to surround myself with, and who i want to be. i feel like i have to make some tough decisions soon and maybe say some of things i have been feeling for so long but have been too scared to say. there is nothing i hate more than making other people hurt, ( Read more... )