lately: been filling my kitchen sink up with hot water and pine sol. im not actually cleaning, just letting the smell of cleanliness permeate the room ( Read more... )

i think i might miss you enough to say so.

i want desperately to connect to people.

it's just impossible when you don't respect them.

i have pushed everyone so far out of my life that there's not a whole lot left ( Read more... )

i used to like large groups of people,

now i just hate them.

is salvaging what's left of my relationship worth missing the jim and pam wedding?

undecided, but i still have three hours.

i realized this week that nothing has or will ever change between us. we are the same as we were when we were 14. i love it, i love you, i want only the best for your future ( Read more... )

i have so much to look forward to in a month.

one of my favorite cities, seeing two of my favorite bands, and going with my top two favorite people. plus i made sure all my hotel reservations had balconies, so i can smoke off of them at my leisure.

life is really awesome sometimes. especially with percocet, which is what i am on right now.

i need to cut off all of the people i use to pass my time. mostly, i feel overwhelmed. trying to keep everyone separate and unknowing of everyone else. it's shitty, and i am not a character on sex and the city ( Read more... )

i want to get married.