01. favorite color: Hot pink and black ( Read more... )

lolz and i dont mean to be so possesive and kall umy gurl and stuff steph..if it bothers u just tel me tay? thanx grrrrr *big smooch* i yuves uuuu :P

OMG haha wolf is soo kool lolz i love that guy :P damn we traded pics of our gurlz...then we talked about em...then we went to the si room and acted gay...then he just says the dumbest shit lolz weeeeee he made me happy.. ugh i still feel like shit.. just not as bad... i want stephy :'( *sigh* ok fuuuuck i have to work in the morning prolly omg its ( Read more... )

no one understand... what its like to hurt so bad u want to break everything..just because u cant hold the one u love...u cant be there for her... i love her so goddamn much..ppl think its a joke... i would do anything for her... i want to lay there and hold her while she sleeps... i want to fucking be there when she needs to cry... god i just want ( Read more... )

Ok ppls im better..breakdowns over... i feel more myself... i geuss i sojust freeked out when she told me she cut again...ugh i was reaaaaaaally hopin she would quite :( i wish she would but yea..dont get everything u wish for... hmmm im sorry steph i really am.. im a psycho.. :( well i have to get ready for that damn barbequ (sp?) and god i was ( Read more... )

and im not breakin that promise... im takin it back because i know i cant keep it.. im not promising anything anymore...promises suck! i fucking suck..im having a breakdown too i just realized..im a fucking wreck.. i need to work.. i need to be away from this goddamn computer...fuck ile shut up...

1 scar 2 scar 3 scar 4, 5 scar 6 scar 7 scar MORE... im curently in the process of 40 cuts... i geuss i better wear a long sleeve to the barbeque... my grandparents prolly wont think to highly if they found out.... *sigh* this is my last fucking cutting post... because im sick of talkin about it and i dont want u to know anymore steph...well ( Read more... )

im such a fucking mistake!!!!!!!!

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so as the storie goes... i finished all ten cuts... like i said i would... i got a new blade this time tough so it didnt hurt as much and so these ones werent as bloody and fuckin deep... but there longer....well i give up... those were my last cuts i geuss... i dunno what to do.. i dont wana just stand here and do nuthing.. but i dont want to hurt ( Read more... )