Golly gee wilikers
This census job is stressful....preparing me for harder times?
building up my potential?

However hard it is its making it easier for me to see how easy it is to reach and push passed my potential.
It's set me on track again, maybe this time I'll make it.

Started visiting a bdsm club,not bad not bad.

Ryan

hey
12:25amColleen

I THOUGHT I TOLD YOU TO LEAVE ME ALONE

ha hahhaa

just kidding
12:25amRyan

whew
12:26amColleen

i didn't realize (when i was typing that) that I had caps on but when I noticed it, it made it funnier
12:26amRyan

just signing on before bed, and thought i'd say hey since I saw you

lol
12:26amColleen

oh
12:42amRyan

So, is Danny around?
12:43am ( Read more... )

I found out today that none of my friends exist as I knew them on this site anymore.
And got a new job.
I was also provided with a sense of purpose after talking to Ryan today.
           Memo:
             Look into Brian Weiss if you're searching for a reason.

Opening
Imagine waiting in a hospital while hooked up to machines monitoring every aspect of what defines your existence for days. The days then turn into weeks, then into months and finally years. Imagine waiting all of that time for nothing to happen.
Sure you're alive, but you're not really living.
Right now that's the case for 95,000 people in ( Read more... )

"When I moved to Florida is when I realized the whole world is not like the left coast." This was the most memorable quote I had with my whole awkward experience interviewing strangers on the subject of global warming. Walking around campus was nice, it was finding diversity in opinions of college students that was the real work out. I never knew  ( Read more... )

 The other night I had a dream in which I had to choose whether or not to spend a year in outer space or stay here and follow through with my original plans ( Read more... )

We're leaving here at around 5 o'clock.
Getting there, parking, and then going to the show.

I went to school on Tuesday and came back yesterday.
I kept having what I can only generally describe as panic attacks and violent fits of sobbing and hyperventilating.
Aside from looking like a child and a freak I also looked like "a dog with my tail between my legs" as I repacked all of my things and withdrew from UWF.
Too far away for me.
I thought ( Read more... )

I got back from West Florida on Saturday.
It's nice there, a little hotter than I would have guessed it being on the coast and all, but the school offers so much I won't mind walking through the scorching heat between classes.
There is a problem though.
They didn't have any of my AP credits from my Sophomore or Junior years on file so we couldn't ( Read more... )

I realize this may sound naive, but, college is a lot more complicated than I thought it would be.