i want you back. i'm not giving up. you better be ready.

edit: :) you're back.

whats wrong with me? apparently there's no more human life in me anymore. i just wanna curl up in bed again && never leave. if there was a way to just escape this state, i'd be FINE, literally, i'd actually be okay. being stuck in this place for the last 18 years sucks && i hate it. i wanna be alone cause that's all i know. i dunno what the fuck to ( Read more... )

my mind is wandering back to a time i thought was supposed to be surreal. i mean, it was fake wasn't it?? yet i keep having moments where i stop and think and sometimes it can be too much like to where i can hyperventilate. i'll forever wish i had a time machine. i swear. i wanna decide right whether or not i'll be able to handle this or not. can i ( Read more... )

hi im mailbox: ryan doesnt like me ( Read more... )

[17:42] loudennupkelli: my stomach is killing me ( Read more... )

Note:i love lexie.

smoked a cigarette
smoked a cigar
made out with a member of the same sex
crashed a friend's car
stolen a car
been in love
been dumped
shoplifted
been fired
been in a fist fight
snuck out of my parent's house
had feelings for someone who didn't have them back
been arrested
made out with a stranger
gone on a blind date
lied to a ( Read more... )

i went to go see her today. i talked to her. she really is the only one//thing that i'd be willing to remember forever. that would be okay i mean. to not forget what i already remember. i found out she quit for me. my ma said i have that kind of affect on people. i realized maybe that's why people find me so easy to go to?? i don't really know how ( Read more... )

( i was tagged by thevelvetsun )

( (a survey that i took from lexie and i know she's the only one that's gonna read this so yeah) )

So here I am in sunny Florida which surprisingly is cooler then Virginia. Huh?, right? I forgot how much I liked Fleming and John. So Aunt Betty's dying and I'm like whatev, you know? Atleast we can see her right? I mean yeah I get depressed when I see her, but that's just natural for me lately, so really it's not her fault just now when I look at ( Read more... )