i'm seriously thinking about cutting right about now i have nothing here to stop me i so sad i wrote Kenny an email and i said that it would be the last for a little while and he wrote me back and said "fine dont have to write me again life goes on and abouthe friends thing we arent frinds anymore have a nice life with david and tell kayla i said ( Read more... )

really this is so frikin stupid i'm do mad at my parents they wont let me go out my dad says " its too late to be driving the drunks are out." grrr. i talked to Kenny again today and I asked him why he says he loves me and was like i do love you Brandi but i feel bad when i hurt people and then i was like but you didnt feel bad when you hurt me huh ( Read more... )

im talking to Kayla right now on the phone and she is so freaking weird and i talked to Kayla's friend Janise on the phone and she is freeeeeeeking coolio and kayla is being mean and no im just playing i love her hehe i wanna make love to her.
i wanna be where she is she sounds like really bored and i wanna go and make her un bored

i hate this guys suck ass holes well like i said in the last 2 entries kenny made me happy and he was saying all this stuff adn he broke up with crysatl last night for me i gues and they got back together today grrr. then crystal came out and asked me to block his email address i dont know if im going to i mean i see where shes coming from but i ( Read more... )

i'm at school right now and i hate it i want it to be spring break already i miss Kenny. i hope he wasnt just fucking with myhead last night i will hate him then i think im gonna go now bye

im sad agin i just got off the phone with becky and she was like you need to make sure if it is ok with her if you go ut with kenny agin and i told her that if she says no then i will go out with him any ways but i dont know any more i dont want him to break up with crystal unless he really wants to i just want him to be happy i mean it would make ( Read more... )

wel the first time in along time im happy again well happier i always hear from Kayla that Kenny talks about me (not bad) but that he misses me and then tonight i was talking to him on the computer and he was like I love you deeply and stuff and i wanted tocry i got so happy i misshim so much and people always say look what he did to you. I knoiw ( Read more... )

i hate my mom she wont let me go to Wickenburg with Kayla because my dad is coming home this weekend but i dont wanna see my dad grrr oh well Adam is really annoying he keeps telling me how my mom is just trying to do good for me fuck my mom she just riuns my life but oh well i guess we're not doing that bad right now i donthtink i can go to the ( Read more... )

i talked to Kenny onthe internet tomight and it was so werid everything was all good but the all of a sudden he was like Brndi i dont wanna fight with crystal anymore and i was liek ok and he was like im gonna overdose on pills and kill myself and istrted crying am stuff and then he goes i miss you so much brandi and he kept saying he was kill ( Read more... )

well i tried to commit suicide the other night but Kayla walked out right as i was about to do it so i stopped and i went in there and she just looked at me and started cryign and yelling at me well not really yelling but asking me why and all this stuff so i got sad and told her i would stop cutting so im gonna try really hard but now i've been ( Read more... )