a lot of things to talk about this week. I am feeling depressed in sort of a nearly ready to crymood today so exprect less anger and more sadness in my rants today ( Read more... )

A few things happened since i last posted ( Read more... )

sorry I have been quiet for a few months. I haven't had much to discuss. I went silent at first because in december my attraction and fantasies both drifted strait. And since then my fantasies drifted back to mostly gay with some gender play mixed in, plus a few shemale ones (a bit unusual for me as I usually consider shemale boring and overdone). ( Read more... )

I had a slight upswing in my life. At work they had a meeting saying how well they are doing as usual (but this time was slightly different saying that the plant I am at has had minor trouble). They also went on about how they are a growth focused company. And whenever they have a meeting saying how well they do they take stuff from us. First money ( Read more... )

emotionally I am all over the place, and still a bit split ( Read more... )

something happened last week. it's scary and I don't like it (but sort of do on one level). I had a very depressed day and found pics of women online arousing. (when depressed I usually drift heterosexual but usually male pics arouse me even then). Since then my attraction has gone almost purely to women (I see men as cute still, but not attractive ( Read more... )

This is a week of tragedies for me. Life has finally gave me something more serious than my TF tastes and my gender/sexual identity to worry about. The first thing came last week with my friend Tom. Tom was a friend at work. He was a bit rough around the edges and could be rude at times, he was an ex con and could rile people up at times. But Tom ( Read more... )

My issues are going 3 ways as usual ( Read more... )

I am drifting way too strait lately. My libido has been mostly dead and my few fantasies have drifted mostly female. Their have been two exceptions which have me wondering on the idea of bi vs desperate. The two times it did drift on me were this. 1. at Applebees eating after work the girls were being flirty with the guy behind the bar who had a ( Read more... )

What I am going to type is likely going to sound stupid to you. If it is I am sorry. two nights in a row I had sexual dreams on women, and my attraction is drifting that way, and not on becoming one either. Even my TG fantasies, though technically the same, have me visualizing the partners as women in my head. (which is odd as I cannot be aroused ( Read more... )