I'm doing better. Last week really sucked because I was going through hydromorphone (opiate) and xanax withdrawals, while sick with a sinus infection, bronchitis, and the stomach flu. The stomach flu is finally going away. I got back home to SD last night for spring break, but there's pretty much no one here to hang out with. Fortunately I survived ( Read more... )

i just don't know what to do with myself anymore. i was never the suicidal type. i'm aware its just immature and selfish and stupid. but i just feel like, i'm empty. and i feel like i have no where to go in life, and living off my parents' money is not acceptable. but more than that, i just feel like there is nothing alive in me. i tried taking ( Read more... )

New Years Survey!

1. WHAT DID YOU DO IN 2007 THAT YOU'D NEVER DONE BEFORE?
Have freedom from parents at college, tried different drugs, went to a rave, had ridic relationships

2. DID YOU KEEP YOUR NEW YEARS' RESOLUTIONS, AND WILL YOU MAKE MORE FOR NEXT YEAR?
Not really, I never really was serious about keeping resolutions but maybe this year's ( Read more... )

The past two weeks have been pretty shitty. I ran out of my medication and went through a terrible 8 day withdrawal until I was finally able to get it again on Friday. Insomnia/anxiety/depression/loss of appetite/vomiting + my roommate scheduling a meeting with my RA to try to get me kicked out + finals stress = way too overwhelming. Even though I' ( Read more... )

i guess it's been awhile since i last updated this. let's see....2 weekends  ago i went down to San Diego (<333333). Coop gave me a ride. That Friday i hung out with Nick Lemon, Coop, and Nate. Saturday I went to coop's house with Jake, Brooke, and Kendy ! Later that night I had a mini party at my house. So random. Rahim, Nailah, and some random bz ( Read more... )

for the first time my life is starting to be impaired by substances. ive been smoking 4-6 days a week, and drinking 2-3. sometimes i just don't do my homework and do one of those activities instead. im having a great time but its starting to impact my schoolwork. like i've been getting really good grades somehow, but i can't handle the pressure ( Read more... )

ahh i miss everyone so much it's driving me crazy. i think im coming back to SD in 2 weekends with no purpose but except to see people. god im so lame. P.S. i have interesting stories to tell but i'm too lazy to write about them right now.

 I was really sick this week. On tuesday night I had a 105 degree fever and was up all night thinking i was gonna get brain damage or organ failure. it was actually really scary, and i was so weak and dilusional that i couldn't really do anything about it. my fever went down to 103, so i was just out of it for a few days until i finally got ( Read more... )

I saw Muse last night live at the Verizon Wireless Amphitheater in Irvine ! fuck it was by far the best show ive ever seen. First of all, they are just great playing live. and the lights and visuals were so fucking amazing, words can't describe it. The stage and everything were so sick. I had no idea how talented the lead singer was. anyways, that ( Read more... )

the past 2 nights have been pretty ridic. so friday night vincent ho was up here and hung out with me, noel, and david villela. he was impressing all the ladies with his sweet phone at evk. we smoked in davids room and watched planet earth and then i passed out sometime around 1. we started IMing tyler mabry saying i was "alone" (from my sn) and he ( Read more... )