Lets see

Tomorrow Im getting a blood test. Apparently everythong should start to hurt these days in life but something is off. I hurt way too much. I assume it is because of my mistreatment of life but hope It’s just age. Ugh, I gotta bad felling about it.

Oof. Today was hard. My legs dont work the same way they did. . Im working with another manage that closes. I asked to go home after her lunch break at 5 and she didn't go to lunch till 5:51. . . I walked slowlely out of there.

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Suns going down as usual. Im here. I played a survival game earlier and it was fun until i went outside and had yhe realization it was a game that I got fully emersed on. My backyard seemed strange. . Dang, I want to be alone but it will be my downfall.

I texted a coworker to bring another coworker over to hang out. I never got a text back. . But I'm supposed to know that I shouldn't fraternize with employees I am managing. . . . Still felt cold. Just tell me "hell no!" I can acknowledge that better than disregard. I know. . I know. I can see my dads face, over and over. I live close to my mom. I ( Read more... )

I think I am going to make this a dream journal now. Make the other profile my main. For now I will say I feel tired. Before and after work. On my days off I sleep in till almost noon. Anyone with energy makes me tired. Life makes me tired. I have come along way and all the people on the way would be proud but I. . Guess. . We dont speak much ( Read more... )

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So, I am turning into a hermit again. I have spent a few years in my thoughts and have adjusted myself accordingly. But it isnt good for the others that are around and want to hang out. I know they sometimes see it as disrespectful or rude but I saved my sanity by doing it back then. . .I will work on ot because i feel genuinely uncomfortable ( Read more... )

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