how does one live a life where up is down and bad is good. my sense of life is inverted sometimes walking with a blindfold on would be more useful its like i have to teach myself to walk all over again and its not that im out of it im just somewhere else
last night was the first time i've genuinly been upset over meeting someone, being attracted to them, admiring their intellect, adoring their manner of speech, and just overall their way with things. you know me when i meet a guy i'm into (it happens rarely).
...and finding out he's gay. not wanting to believe it.