Im laughing right now...I literally was updating to say i am not gonig to update this anymore. Almost as soon as I began the spirit told me to keep it updated. The reason why I thought I would cut it off was for a number of reasons. First Im terrible at hiding things and this brings me into full exposure. I dont really hide anything on this ( Read more... )

ive been reading Isiah. Today as I was reading Isiah in class I felt the word of God revealing truth. Isiah speaks about the day of the Lord and the birth of Immanuel. God also speaks of his warriors. How God will instill eagerness and anger in his warriors. And it spoke to me because this is how I feel. I dont even know my future at all ( Read more... )

ive been thinking that a circle has 360 degrees. That is a lot of different entry ways into a circle. I feel like a sphere however. i dont know how many degrees that would be...im guessing 360 squared, regardless, the number is sufficient towards my feelings. I truly am deathly scared. i feel that the entry ways (360^2) are the ways that evil ( Read more... )

It has become apparent to me that I indeed am not going to pass english. my other grades this semester arent the most academic either. Ive prayed that God put the desires in my heart that are righteous. I have never made bad grades, because I cared. God seems to have most certainly taken my passion from school. Ive tried to fight this very hard ( Read more... )

Father God I come before you. I can not deny what is layed out before me. my ideals and future are being broken righteously. Holy Lord I can not see where I am going. Abolish any fear in my heart Lord for it does not recognize that you are King. Everyday I see more clearly my exorcism from this world. My prayer is I take refuge in your word ( Read more... )

i havent written in my journal in a while. The reason is simple. Shame. It is written that the word of God is offensive to the impure. I say amen. God has entered truth into my heart and it has saddened me and offended me. My spirit as of lately hasnt been summoned. God has showed me that I will be spat out by the world. I will one day be ( Read more... )

its easier to fall than get up. I need a child of God to pick me up right now. In essence, Him manifested and shining through a vessel is what I need. How terrible am I to so easily set aside? The same power and weight that can make my heart gaze above waiting for a promise, the same power that within all things living should give thanks to the ( Read more... )

i dont know what to do with myself sometimes. Today I couldnt work up the nerve to go to work or school. I just dont care too. One class was cancelled I will admit. I act and do on what I want. This is a time where it back fires. I enjoy class. Always when I go to class I enjoy it. I enjoy work almost always. Yet I skip out on class more ( Read more... )

yesterday was such a gift. I found what church I want to be a part of and I had dinner with my family at home. When I see my family I am so happy that I get dissapointed knowing that in a few hours they will be gone again. I have a sense of urgency in my soul and this becomes amplified when I see my family. Like this is how Im judging time is ( Read more... )

Ive taken for granted the faithfulness and grace of God. I can say that I havent had to work on my relationship with Christ that much. Since coming to Christ, Ive just had to act on my heart and its just blossomed beautifully with time. I just naturally find myself seeking and loving God. Rarely ever does something take away time from God, ( Read more... )