Hey, now I work at Wild Oats. It is pretty good, and much better paying than old Ben Franklins. There's always actual work to do, as well. There're very few people I haven't warmed to yet, and thankfully I won't be dealing with them lots of the time. My two main bosses are super awesome. I work as a Cashier and in Natural Health/Holistic Living. I ( Read more... )

My excitement is building for KCAI. I got my room assignment a few days ago, but still have not called my future roommate. I'm almost afraid of doing so just because there's so much to say (and what if she hasn't even checked her email recently?) It's daunting, anyways ( Read more... )

Will I ever know exactly what I'm doing with myself?

No.

But I can always fall back on crypticism and word-play!

Someone I trust told me, "You can love, or you can protect your soul." Because of love's addictive euphoria, I know I'll always be drawn to that option. Every time a relationship has fallen apart I've publicly vowed to stay out of that mess for a while. It never lasts. I mean... I have not gone more than six weeks at a stretch without a boyfriend ( Read more... )

This time I can't even convince myself that I hate you. It's pitiful. My defenses are gone. I just want to be with you. Quietly, I just want to lay in your bed with you and let our foreheads touch and I want to feel safe there, like you'd never make me hurt this way... like I gave enough to earn kindness in return... like I'm worth protecting ( Read more... )

Please take your fists from their menacing grip around my heart. Please put them on my waist, where I feel they belong.

Grrrrrr.

I woke to the enthused tones of my cell phone. Scramble. Not a recognized number. Did I sleep in? I'm not ready to go anywhere, I'm not showered, aw shoot. "Hello ( Read more... )

Life is lovely ( Read more... )

Tomorrow morning I'm leaving for California. I'll be coming back sometime on the 8th. When I have so little time left in this place, a week away seems like too long. But I don't enjoy dwelling on unpleasant thoughts, so I shall consider instead shell-hunting on the beaches of Bodega Bay, and meeting my cousin's wife for the first time. It's a ( Read more... )

"This whole thing with Brennan... all my faith, trust, pride in you... in how I raised you... is seriously damaged..."

And then I walked away from my mother. And cried. And hated...