Please give me the strength to bear this burden, the wisdom to keep it to myself, and the selfless love I so desperately need to keep from lashing out in my pain at he who so heartlessly wounded me. Please.

When confronted with the possibility of a new relationship, I push boundaries. Of course, right now, I am only interested in possible friendships. Even so, I constantly feel the need to maneuver around bullshit in order to reach how people truly operate. I'm not interested in what is appropriate according to the proverbial "them." Thing is, there ( Read more... )

I've been doing quite a bit of pondering lately, and decided to be brutally honest with myself. I made a list of strengths, weaknesses, and their respective polarities. I tried to be as objective as possible, and knowing that each attribute would have a rebuttal made doing so just a little easier. So, here goes:

Weakness
~Pride - Confidence
~Stubborn ( Read more... )

I am alive. I live. Therefore, I can only understand things that have a beginning and an end. Polarity. I see it in everything. Every blessing has the potential to become a curse. Every strength can atrophy. Every good thing, if misunderstood, can be seen as harmful. Hope's shadow twin is naivete. Strength, whether physical or mental, can be ( Read more... )

The ingredients list and involvement level of this recipe is rather comprehensive. I'm one of those, "throw whatever's going bad into a pot" soup-makers, which is probably how they got started anyway. So, feel free to ignore whatever you don't have/feel like doing, as this soup is a product of my tastes and available ingredients. :) This also makes ( Read more... )

I have come to believe that my purpose for being here on this earth, as of late, is to produce copious amounts of mucous. I have no shame. I am beyond it, now. I'm sitting here with tissues stuffed up my nose, so I don't have to blow it one more bloody flippin' time!

On a slightly different note, I watched an amazingly beautiful sunrise this morning ( Read more... )

Anne Frank. Why don't we hear about her more? Why is this world that has so much at it's fingertips complaining? Why is it that, when someone genuinely has cause to feel sorry for one's self, they don't? Turning that around, why is it that, when one's life is relatively unomplicated, they search for ways to obtain pity ( Read more... )

If you're on my friends list, I want to know 36 things about you. I don't care if we never talk, or if we already know everything about each other. Short and sweet is fine... you're on my list, so I want to know you better ( Read more... )

My parents raised my sister and me in a very fundamentally christian home. So, naturally, I became an anti-theist for a while. ;) After a while, though, I realized that I was simply on the other end of the same spectrum I claimed to despise. Allow me to pick apart the religion I know better than the back of my hand ( Read more... )

Well, I've made the perfect hair wax for curly hair. I'm now attempting to come up with a natural hair spray. Two people asked me about my stuff I'm making. Strangers. I'm wondering if I should make some cards, or something. Hmm...