Of all the people I have met and the obscene things I have seen, I have never met one person that was happy with their life. Every one of them was still waiting for some certain thing. Though the common theme was an escape. Everyone wants to run away and disappear. Life is not what is shown on the big box that glows pictures ( Read more... )

Stale air
Dusty roads
Lying bare
Dead beaten world
Give me no hope
Hate me
Tearing inanely
Blank advent
A monstrous fate
Nothing-
Nothing is now
Thin dirt
slowly cover me
Sloth
Cry to me
Sin
Cradle me
Lonely ghosts
Claw up
Abandoning

So I have been back in Michigan for about three weeks now. I can't say if I am truly happy, or even sad. Though I can say without hesitation that nothing has changed. Maybe a few minor things, but everyone is the same, no one has grown. It is like I just walked back into time, into my old memories and picked up. I feel like I have to fill that ( Read more... )

I will start keeping a journal of my thoughts and feelings. Hopefully this will relieve me of some of the weight that I carry. This part may only last for a month and some. At this point I am debating on moving back to Michigan. The place I picked up and left ( Read more... )

It has been a while since I've been back to Michigan. Though I escaped, and wanted to, I miss it. I miss the people, the fun, the old times. But there are no more times, so what do we have to grieve? It's just sad... y'know? The kid dies and the grown up rises. So we all go serperate ways and what was was and what is is. But was is nevermore, just ( Read more... )

So I have not posted in FOREVER! Where do I start to explain what has been happening. I'll start with the most recent. I am going to lose my apartment, I have no job, no money, and so I can't pay rent, so I will lose my apartment and be sued. On top of that, i was supposed to come home for christmas, that didn't happen, Tony's car got repo'd. Haha ( Read more... )

So I am quitting my second job. I got a new job at this company called ACS, they deal with call centers for different companies. I work for nextel/sprint for boostmobile. How fun, yay.... I only handle inbound calls, so that's good. Right now I am going through training. I got fired at my job at The Miners Club, so complications I had with ( Read more... )

Hey yo. Got my phone now, my number is 8108145616. Peace.

I had the best day today. I went shopping at the gateway, got me some hot clothes. I got another piercing. I got my hair did, which cost a pretty penny. I went to a place called Lunatic Fringe, it took like two hours for me to get my hair cut and dyed, it was awesome. Then I went to the Yeah Yeah Yeahs' concert with a new friend, it was so cool. ( Read more... )

Happiness floods my heart when thoughts of you seize my mind ( Read more... )