"Tonight is the last night that I will walk alone. tonight is the last night i will call this place my home. i have fought many windmills, and chased after wind. i've clasped my hands around nothing again and again. we're all just bleeding to death from self inflicted wounds. we're all obtainting careers to provide our dooms. blindfolded and naive ( Read more... )

I am stuck. I am so broke. I need money so so badly, I have a giant credit card bill and I don't know how Im going to pay for it. I need car insurance money and I have to pay for my flight home and I just don't know anymore. I am so lost. Life sucks today. I want to give up and just say oh well and run away from everything and everyone.

Wow. I always somewhat forget I have a livejournal. Probally intentionally. Well Generation conference is in 4 days, Im so ready. Yup I'm ready to worship God, Cry, laugh, change, start a revolution, surrender to God, talk, eat food, have fun in the hotels,take photos, pull pranks,share my testimony, repent,start over.

I am stressing out. I have to write a paper by tomorrow. I want my twloha shirts right this second. I want to give into my problem right this very second. My papa just found out he has lung cancer and went into a emergency operation. I just got back from visiting him. I guess hes doing okay given the circumstances. I took a nap today and my ( Read more... )

I relaxed today. It was great. I have finally found a place that I can go to by myself and just sit. I wish I had my camera with me. Oh well next time I'll bring people with me and have a photoshoot. The funnyish part is I've been to that spot before but on completely different circumstances. Then I was driving near that area earlier and pulled in ( Read more... )

People ask me all the time "whats new" and for one of the first times I can say A lot.

I am currently waiting for flyleaf to perform on the Jimmy Kimmel show. Time couldn't move much slower. Lacey is seriously addicting.

I never get on the computer anymore. So all my things like this and myspace are rarely updated but thats okay, I'm going to keep them anyways. So as for school I'm all set. I should figure out my roommates soon and my classes are all scheduled. I still need to find a job out there but i suppose i still have time ( Read more... )

Its been a long time. Woo lots have changed. went to nyc t'was fun. had my prom, went to skan. senior prom, won A TV. went to a few shows. Got rid of my dog a few weeks ago. Met some new people. Last day of school I cried, it was actually a sad time because I realized how much I actually care about a lot of people. I think the next two weeks are ( Read more... )

Yesterday or at least I believe it was yesterday.. (my days are meshing together) Lauren and I were at AFR and a waitress said to a guy you rolling on out now tom?.. i think his name was tom but anyways I look a few seconds later and the guy was in a wheelchair so he was literally rollin on out. I still don't know if I think its funny or not ( Read more... )