new years was fun chillied with zeke daniel and raven. I dunno this is alll sooooooo weird to me but whatever. I kept gettin warning about raven bein the type to not stick around for long... and i got the feeling that i was something that will last a bit. As of now im just playin it by ear ( Read more... )

its been a long few days i feel like a zombie. Between sleeping on the floor and feeling constantly nervous i feel like im lacking and devoid or something. My cell phone hasn't worked in like 2 days cause i dont' get service and i cant make long distance calls on my house phone... Im starting to wonder why i really moved out here or if it was ( Read more... )

So how can you still feel so strong for someone that hurt you so badly. Shes just so beautiful. Not just in looks but as a person. Shes so thankful for everything and so honest... simply just herself. Its weird we've been hanging out so much and im so glad that the friendship is there, i feel like she did so much for me in the past helpin me ( Read more... )

I find my self dwelling on stuff to much as of late. I dunno whats goin on, bu for some reason i can't seem to accomplish nething. I feel like theres this big hole in me that is healing o so slowly and for some reason i feel incomplete. I've been smoking a lot of pot, but i haven't been drinkin or takin pills. I have this sickening feeling that ( Read more... )

Blah... i've been doin way to much shit i need to just slow everything down. But i did see a car on fire last night on the way to extras which was fuckin sweet. We ran the pool table for 2 hours on other peopoles money left at 12 when free drinks ended went to the dawghouse to see samantha(friend/bar tender) drank and played pool till about 2a.m ( Read more... )

So yea we just got back, randomly decided to come back at about 5 this afternoon. Drove strait back 3 stops for gas made it in just over 7 or so hours but we ran about 90-95 all the way. This is definatly my fastest time back yet... and we luckly didn't get any tickets.

But yea its near 4 a.m. now and im goin to bed.

peace

So yea i saw some old friends today. Auctually saw dustin who was like a brother to me... gave him hell for me not being best man at his wedding, but come to find out there were only four people there coutning him, his wife, dad and the preacher. So i guess thats cool. So yea we got high and wend to see pirates, i've been gettin high a lot lately ( Read more... )

So yea i took off to SC for a long weekend with my friend Matt. Its been pretty cool being down here, i've definatly missed it and im considering moving back here. For soem reason it just feels really right to be down here. But then again so much has changed, i foudn out yesterday that one of my best friend is now married with twins on the way ( Read more... )

Holy shit i just saw one of the guys from kids in another movie... the one that plays the dude that has hiv and loves to gget with virgins ( Read more... )

I now know how it feels to be the one that wants it all back vs. the one that doesn't. I should've saw it coming. I'm losing grasp i went for the gun last night i was really gonna do it. I dunno what to do, i ended up in the er for a whlie and i may be gettin committed this week. I quite my job, and im damn near quittin life... im having to ( Read more... )