I love how peaceful christians are ( Read more... )

cowardly, timid, insincere, complacent, apathetic, narcissistic, aimless,

friendly, reliable, helpful, loving, personable, optimistic, forgiving

I cant believe i am where i am.
i never thought my life would be like this when i was in elementry or even high school.
I thought i would be... normal
wow

Any minute now my ship
is coming in
I'll keep checking the horizon
And I'll stand on the bow
And feel the waves come crashing
Come crashing down, down, down on me

And you said,"Be still, my love
Open up your heart
Let the light shine in"
Don't you understand?
I already have a plan
I'm waiting for my real life to begin

When I awoke today suddenly ( Read more... )

well, i am off to the land where seldom is heard a discouraging word.

i am excited. and at the same time i feel i am admiting defeat.
well, thats not such a big deal.
so what. i need some help,
and im going to get better.

Whether I come home or stay here, the the only commonality is me.

so does it make a difference?

Happiness vs. Growth
they're not mutually exclusive, but why does it feel that way?

Does staying in San Diego intellectually benefit me more than coming back?
Would moving back make me happier than staying and working through it?

talk about a tough decision ( Read more... )

i miss a lot of old friends now ( Read more... )

Nothing quite like winning expert Minesweeper

Well, here it goes.

Ive changed my major.
i will be leaving san diego for good in may or june, hopefully transfering to UCI or cal poly pomona some time soon.
i hope to move on to balboa island, back into my old house and bring with me some new friends.
i sit here, nearly every day after my classes and wonder how i got this point.
i dont feel connected ( Read more... )

Im coming home