so i got back on american soil yesterday in the early afternoon. as soon as i saw my mom all of the energy i thought i didn't have came back to me and i haven't yet had much sleep. the ride to the bangkok airport was amazing; bangkok was the emptiest i had seen it, no traffic jam to speak of. it was drizzling and there were tanks everywhere. ( Read more... )

also: it's not like i want/need to feel feminine and dainty all the time - i certainly don't - and until steve and i started dating, i almost never did, i just don't like my un-asian size and whatever else to be used against me as an insult, like i'm not trying hard enough to be thin and beautiful or something, like i should be small enough for ( Read more... )

back in bangkok and it is raining torrentially. it is a lovely feeling to watch a rain storm from a safe, warm place. deaw's puppies who i haven't seen in a week or so are walking around all by themselves now, chewing on my hands and chasing their mother ( Read more... )

i had a pretty good day, but sort of shitty. deaw's uncle works for a tour agency and there were some empty seats on a speedboat set to travel around the tiny, forested, limestone islands off the coast of southern thailand, so deaw, mae and i got them for free. it was gorgeous obviously, unlike anything i had ever seen. we snorkled in a placid ( Read more... )

i'm so tired now, i had better go to bed soon. my face hurts from squinting this afternoon. it is hard not to squint riding a motorbike though, with dust and sun and who knows what else hitting you square in the eyes. today was amazing. deaw and i went to the national park and gibbon rehabilitation center i mentioned before. mae stayed behind, ( Read more... )

i am in phuket now, which i guess is the tropical paradise where the rich come to spend their money. but it is just a sweet little tourist town on the low season, with lovely uninhabited beaches, sand that sqeaks when you step on it, and water so clear you can see your own feet. the waves are the color of young jade. there is a tiny forested ( Read more... )

nobody livejournals anymore, including myself, except now that i am in another country wanting to talk to my far-away friends. i miss you guys.

for two hours yesterday i was stretched, kneaded and pummeled to within an inch of my life by a smiling thai woman under the guise of 'traditional thai massage'. i thought i would have bruises but i don't and the pain was entirely gone within half an hour afterwards and i actually felt pretty good. the owner of the massage place was a famous thai ( Read more... )

i said i would update frequently but i ws wrong i guess. and now i don't even know what to say. everything is different here ( Read more... )

yesterday my mom cried and accused me of all sorts of things, among them being that i was selfish and not supportive to her. she left and i called to check on her about three hours later, at which point she cried and appologized and said she didn't really mean anything she said and that i wasn't selfish at all ( Read more... )