Fading away, well you might say, I'm losing focus

[what_if]

I've determined that I'm too clever for my own good. I think the reason I'm not afraid of anything is because I construct a world of total safety. Until I'm so fucking safe that I can't move, or grow. No real challenges. No real problems. I'm so well insulated in these walls that the world could die and I might not notice

Comments

[aprilia27]

I do agree that you're darn clever. What sort of challenges or problems do you want to encounter? I mean, sometimes when you have a lot of problems you just long for a safe, peaceful existence. But then when you acheive that, you feel stagnant. I don't know though Andrew, you seem to grow whether you have challenges or not. Seems to me that you are always meeting new people and doing new things. That's great, you know? But anyway, I hope you feel more satisfied with things soon. And TOO clever or not, I still think you're pretty great. : )

[what_if]

Thanks April, that's really lovely of you to say :)

Yeah I shouldn't complain so much that I don't have ANY problems in my life. But, it isn't that, I'm glad for my health, and the health of my loved ones etc, but I realize that I'm not putting myself out there... enough, I want to do a lot more. Because I know I can. Thanks for reminding me to look at all I have though.

[gee_munee]

#1 I think keeping ones' life safe and secure is a challenge in itself.

#2 Are you still doing volunteer work?

[what_if]

#2, not currently.