Well yesterday was an extremely odd day. I was recovering from infection when I get a call from her. She called me and I realyl didnt expect to talk to her again just because in our relationship we had some differences that at times made things harder. She called me and we kinda talked yanno no arguing or disagreement. Just nice, calm, soothing ( Read more... )

Well......surgery in itself is not always joyful. I've learned that since the last two months of my life have been spent in and out of surgeries. I've recently learned that there's a chance I have tumors in my sinus cavity. I'll still have to undergo tests to see where I stand and blah blah blah. I guess, I thought i'd never be that person to havew ( Read more... )

My "girlfriend" and I are pretty much nothing anymore it seems like. I've been in and out of the hospital for surgeries due to growths in my sinus cavity for almost the last month. She doesn't even know if she wants to be with me anymore. I dont really know where I fucked up if I even fucked up at all and she wont tell me anything except "i dont ( Read more... )

Well last night in my last entry I was somewhat depressed because of everything that has happen to me in about the last week. Everything was slowly but surely falling apart whether i wanted it to or not and that basically made me powerless and for me anyway, it sucks feeling that way. I thought alot about what I want and somewhat of what I felt I ( Read more... )

Everything right now is a blur for me. The one thing that mattered most to me slowly fell apart and who knows what will happen next. My heart feels like it's slowly swelling with emotions ready to just burst from within me. All I feel I can do is just curl into a ball and cry over everything and nothing all at once. I feel as though I'm slowly ( Read more... )

I saw the most important person to me this weekend. She was at my house and spent the night. Didn't see her for fucking ever it felt like. Now she tells me she can't spend the night anymore because she went home with a hickey on her neck. Her mom wont allow it! I'm just like wtf. ok?? Anyway, things have gotten better but weird in a way. We haven't ( Read more... )

She ended it! She said she didnt think it was working but this whole time she told me otherwise.I was gonna propose to her tomorrow too. She never really told me thr truth. She told me she loved me today and then this....WTF?! Whatever....it's what she wants. Somehow I felt this coming. All the warning signals were there and my instinct was telling ( Read more... )

I dont know where to begin. I thought I had the greatest relationship in the world and for a while I did. Tonight is the worst night of my life. The things the person I thought "loved me" has said to me hurt me so badly I can't even breathe. It was like it was someone else. I went to her house tonight...I thought everything was ok and then this ( Read more... )

Well so much for thinking things are cool with ur significant other and then all of a suden she fucking hangs up on you for no reason. What did i do? I tried to figure out if anything was wrong and this is the first time she's ever hung up on me so something is seriously wrong. I'm just gonna sit tis one out and let her do whatever the hell she ( Read more... )

Well.....I was out of town(in california)for a few days for a conference. It sucked because the sickness I had before I left returned when I got there. I had a fever for about a day and a half and then somewhat throughout the rest of the time I was there. Then, to top off the bullshit trip, my girlfriend and I just randomly started arguing. She ( Read more... )