I want to kill something. It's scary. I have the cruel mentality of a 9 year old boy

Something has been really wrong with me for the past few weeks. It's unsettling feeling as if I have a lack of control over my emotions. I can't seem to snap out of it, but I'm not well. How do I get back there? I don't intend to whine and complain, I'm just concerned ( Read more... )

I just can't handle relationships on any level. I am not cut out for them.

Well well well. hello again. So I suppose I've had this journal for almost 6 years? 5 maybe. Oh wow. Thats very interesting. it's also interesting but of course inevitable how I've written in this less and less over the years ( Read more... )

god damn. god fuckin dammit.

i need a break. from everyone and everything.

When I meet someone like I have you, who blows my mind constantly, I really feel like I have wasted so much time. Though you aren't in a good spot, a good situation, you have pulled so much out of life and oh boy, i am a jealous one.

I dyed my hair today. I know, I always do. but this time it's different. I dyed it red. I wanted Irish girl red, but it turned out crazy sherbet orange. i'm over it, it's not what i wanted but i will fix it another time ( Read more... )

i can't be upset. And I am not upset. Disappointed, yes. It's for the best, it was good, and life goes on. I learned a lot. I realize now I deserve better than what I often settle for. I can't wait for Lauren Jean to come. I am so amazed by how far her and I have come together. I definitely see her in my future ( Read more... )

Things have been great as of late ( Read more... )

It's taken me a year, but I've decided I like Santa Barbara.