I thought I was feeling better. It turns out that I was just distracting myself. Bill came back from out of town an hour ago, with no warning. I thought I was going to have the day to myself. I need to get out of this city, I don't care where ( Read more... )

There have been times in my life when I have been extremely depressed and the entire world seemed dark and ignorant. But right now I feel like I've never felt before. And it's an incomparable sadness, but if anything I think it's worse ( Read more... )

So, Ash is coming to dinner with me tonight. I'm excited, I've missed her so much since I've been in 'prison'. Shit, I've missed everyone. It seems like it's been a million years, but tomorrow, when I get off work at 8:30pm, I will be FREE! Yay! So, everyone should show up at my job at 8:30 tomorrow, and watch me eat cake for a few minutes, and ( Read more... )

It's 2:42 and I'm watching infomercials. I'm tired, but I don't want to sleep, ugh. Ashley and Chet are coming over tomorrow morning!!! Yay!!!! I miss them!!! I want Anita to come too...but I think she may be in recovery. I feel bad calling her that early in the morning. Well, Sunday isn't too far away, so if not tomorrow, I'll see her then. I'm ( Read more... )

Well, I'm about to go hang out with Ashley and Anita. Yay! I'm excited. I love them. I feel so lost right now though, I left both my cigarettes AND my cell phone at home, AND I forgot to feed my dogs before I left. I'm hoping I can steal them away for an hour to go do that stuff and then come back out here ( Read more... )

Fuck me!!!! I'm gay and I lost $100.

That's all I have. I'm too blinded by anger and disappointment.

Quick, burn some incense and crank up the Yanni!!! These cigarettes are not helping. I never thought I'd say that sentence in my life...ever.

Never.

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Right now. I really just want to get drunk and make out with a pretty girl.

Is that so much to fucking ask!?!?!?!?!?

Oh and cigarettes, gotta have cigarettes.

Today, walking home from work the way I always do, it rained ( Read more... )

This has been a weird few days. And I'm assuming it's going to get a lot weirder tonight. Um, I went to the gyno today, and it turns out that my abnormal cells are pre-cervical cancer. Before they weren't quite sure what it was, so I had to go back in. It sucks, they said that I'm going to have to go in every 4 months for the rest of my life. I ( Read more... )