how much must i have to suffer till i am happy? how much must i have to go through till i can think about something other than one thing? what must i do to be able to get your attention? what must i do to get you to notice me instead of him all the time?! do you ignore me on purpose? is anything you told me true or mean anything to you? why do you ( Read more... )

it was coo. i went to the beach, saw carey and brendan but didnt disturb them. i played around for like 2 or 3 hours in the water and sand...it was fun. i then went home to start watching "Maria Full of Grace" but didnt finish it. picked up carey and went to studio b. we met nate, whitney and ashley(nates friends) we were like the first ones there ( Read more... )

do you ever feel like people are just trying to get rid of you? and only want you when they need you? like your still there like a bug pestering them, annoying them and stopping them from doing what they want to? like the person you want to pay attention to you isnt but everyone else is ( Read more... )

the sun is shining and its warm! i feel great. everything is going pretty good. marissa thank you.

pay attention to me now, pay attention to me tomorrow. please pay attention to me. it hurts and i dont know why. i know what i want, but i only want it if you do. im the person that gets left out, that comes in last. do you ever think about me? because i cant not think about you.

"if you smash into something good, then you should hold onto it until its time to let go."- Under the Tuscan Sun ( Read more... )

man time really flies, not matter what you think. i remember like it was just yesterday when i was listening to my mother read to my sister and i while sailing along on our old boat up in canada. i remember making forts out of chairs and blankets in our living room with my baby sitters. time really goes by fast ya'll, enjoy it to its fullest and ( Read more... )

so umm yall gotta check this out ( Read more... )

...the way her tears make you want to change the world so that it doesnt hurt her anymore...if only, if only...

do you ever feel like crying when you cant? because you are too stong. because you have too much pride. i feel like hitting one person, caring for another and cuddling and conforting another. its just too many emotions and i dont like it. nothing is going the way i would like it and people are talking too much. roomers are going crazy and they ( Read more... )