first day of kickboxing class today. it kicked my ass but you know.. later i'll be able to kick ass so it'll come around. very fun. very tough.
I feel very broken. hehe

in other news, I painted my room. It feels nicer.. feels like me. I've been seeing a guy and I think I'm starting to like him a lot. going slowly and unserious though. good.

 round one of muddy late night soccer = successful
didn't body check anyone but accidently body checked myself twice. hehe
i love it.

hoping for more rain so that more of these games are to be played

happy solstice

 MY DAD IS SUCH A FUCKING ASSHOLE!!

i wish there was something i could do for my sister. why can't she have a normal amazing summer full of fun memories like i did when i was her age?!

 finding friends without searching ( Read more... )

finally rained here for the first time in 30 days.

god, i love the gloomy skies.
Without rain I almost forgot how much I love Radiohead. OK Computer still paralyzes me. I can do nothing but listen while it swoons me. 

 my friend and i have sort of a bet going on this....so now we have to each survey as many people as possible in 48 hours to see what the public decides...

would you rather be a bounty hunter or a jedi (assuming both are in the star wars universe)??

backpacking trip was successful. more affirmations of why i love it here. i may even like the pacific northwest forests better than those in tahoe. it is lush and moist, alpine meadows interspersed throughout, and moments of intermittent rain to remind you where you are. 
 only complaints: the lake we camped at was frozen solid. oops. the place ( Read more... )

 my dad is a child ( Read more... )

 There is nothing I enjoy more, lately, than time alone. At these times I am happiest, most productive, and feel most fulfilled. Turning a new leaf, becoming a real person. I don't need people to be happy, and I certainly don't need romance to feel complete. These things that once I revolved my life around are now pleasant ornaments on top of an ( Read more... )

 life tastes sweetly of summer and contentment. newness and change. forward motion and maturation.