I have become quite the spoiled lazy bum this last 6 months thanks to our wonderful government. The big man told me I didn't have to work...or at least very hard. I've been working 2 days a week basically for the last 6 months, allowing me time to go on auditions and model shoots while still getting a minimal yet steady trusty unemployment check ( Read more... )

You ever rent a movie you know you probably shouldn't watch because you know it will just bring up memories you are just trying to forget? Then once you watch this what should have been forbidden movie you find yourself to be in a funk and questioning everything you are doing at them moment....is this really the path I want to take in life? Was ( Read more... )

I GOT A JOB TODAY!!!!!!! Finally! It is at a very nice Italian restaurant here in Burbank called Palmadora. I will be working as a server. If all goes well I may even be able to get ride of the lodge which I have disliked for a very long time now. I go in tomorrow for paper work and hopefully start training on Monday! YAY!!!!!

I find it ironic that Hooters doesn't actually hire girls with Hooters. I have been applying to them for almost a year now and they never seem to be interested. I was told last week they were hiring and to come back Monday at 2. Which I did and was told the same thing I have been told every other time I have gone in- which means they already ( Read more... )

So I made it though my first Thanksgiving week away from my family. I missed out on the family excursion. Every year my entire family goes to a quaint little beach on the Oregon coast for a 5 day Thanksgiving extravaganza. It's 5 fun days of beach hiking, turkey eating, family time and general stuffingness. Meaning there is always a lot of food ( Read more... )

No matter how much I seem to be picking myself up, I always seem to fall right back down. I am tired.

I have cried so much over the last three months I seem to have no tears left. I quite think this is very much a good thing seeing as how I don't cry every night anymore, but it leaves me with a rather strange feeling. I now feel void and empty throughout the day. This used to be a state I could reach only while asleep- and the main reason why I ( Read more... )

Good news is I'm past my depression. Yay for me. But now I am just plan confused. I've been talking to a guy on line for a few weeks now. Friendly talk with just a little bit of interest. But he has a girlfriend. And even though he says he's not into her anymore the fact of the matter is he doesn't seem to want to brake things off with her. ( Read more... )

I had ordered a new swim suit last week through the mail. I finally got it last night. It is a really cool neoprene half body (shorts) suit. I've been wanting one for the longest time and I found one for a good price. I was so excited that I went to the pool last night to try it out. I got in the water, push off the wall and my boobs fell out ( Read more... )

Aghhhhh- *deep breath* so good to be feeling good again! After having a complete and full brake down Saturday night I have been well on my way to complete recovery. It also helped that I was able to send my ex some very good pictures of me...Agh yes, his response? "Christ you are so hot!!!!". Hummmm- maybe he should have thought of that BEFORE ( Read more... )