one of my clients has been cheating on me. she came in tonight with a mop of faded red, curly, fuzzy, gappy nastiness on her head. well,i colored her roots, highlighted the top, put color over her ends, toned her highlights, and fixed her gappiness in about two hours. it was hot. she smokes 2.5 to 3 packs of cigarettes a day, she has the best ( Read more... )

i hate my life right now. i need some valium. quitting smoking is a bitch. school and work are stressing me the fuck out. i don't understand half of what precalculus is about and i can only remember half of that. i have a presentation tomorrow in old testament on Jericho and i was going to use my lovely King-issued laptop to do a power point ( Read more... )

i could be smoking a cigarette right now; but i'm not. i could also be having sex right now; but i'm not. i'm quitting smoking again, Charlie and i are going to be each other's support system. Jeremy, the "gym boy" from last summer, has been wanting to hook up with me. i want more than a fuck, damnit. so he had me go buy some porn for him. i ( Read more... )

i've not updated. Chad actually did call me. we hung out one night; but it was just weird. of course that could have been because of this silly 18 year old girl talking the entire time. Charlie and Scott are single/without prospects again. i don't feel so alone, now. went camping with Scott, Christine, Brian, and a guy Brian works with in ( Read more... )

ok, i've been proven wrong... twice. Chad has called me twice so far this week. i actually did tell him today that being friends would be great but that i didn't want to have any more lines from romance novels thrown at me. so i'm supposed to go down to the gatsby's tomorrow night to hear him sing karaoke after i get off of work. whee, straight ( Read more... )

so i get home last night from hanging out with Scott after having driven around aimlessly in jc for several hours, and Chad (the guy who said "it's going to be hard falling in love with you if you're not around" and didn't really talk to me after that) had messaged me. he offered an appology for "what [he] did... twice." he also left his number ( Read more... )

fuck it indeed... i am overreacting to the situation at hand. i am sorry he has to go. both for he and his children. i am not going to sit around moping because of it. i have my own life to worry about. it came a lovely storm this evening. i sat on the porch talking to Scott for over an hour about everything as i drank beer and smoked. we ( Read more... )

still sorting through my options, since i'm having problems getting to sleep. if i try really hard, i can get out a tear. i feel as if i am on the cusp of having a breakdown; yet i lack the follow-through. what am i to do?

i can't sleep cause i'm thinking about you. and i'm all stressed out cause i don't know what to do.

i found out a few minutes ago that Travis is not going to be able to get out of going to Iraq and is leaving sunday. i don't know why but i think about it and i want to puke and cry. we aren't dating. we don't know each other that well. there's no reason for me feel as much as i do. perhaps it's sympathy for his boys, fear that he might not ( Read more... )

Phillip was in from nashville saturday so i got to hang out with him for a little bit at pharaohs. it was good, i hadn't seen him since a large group of us went to see "The Day After Tomorrow." what a disaster that film was. video games are wonderful. i finally beat metroid prime. i'm still missing three items before i get 100%. i'll go back ( Read more... )