in the last memory i have of her she is dead

[whenisayred]

everything thats made is made to decay. that pretty much says it all. my grandmother was one of the very few relatives i was close to. and its funny that she died right at a time where i was finally getting to know her. when i finally felt that we were establishing a relationship. i havent cried yet. i guess i should. but i dont really know

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[what_i_miss]

my grandpa died the day before xmas eve. i feel ya soul mate... <3

[whenisayred]

thanks. im sure you really do understand

Grandmother

[anonymous]

My Grandmother raised me. She was my mother, the only person in my family to ever "get" me. Everyone else was a piece of shit. When she died I knew the only person to ever love me purely and unconditionally was gone and I would never have that kind of love again. I feel for you. I know it doesn't seem so now, but time will make you feel a little better. Only a little. My condolences.

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[whenisayred]

thanks. yeah i understand that time will make me feel a bit better. and i understand that i need to continue on with my life, but every once and a while i think of her out of the blue, and it all comes crashing back

Re: Grandmother

[anonymous]

I hear ya. And unfortunately, that will probably happen for the rest of your life. I thought when she DID die, I would crumble to the ground, cry for a LOOOOONG ass time and then get over it. I was surprised to find that it didn't happen that way. It's weird. You'll be fine and then any little thing will trigger you to be emotional, then you'll be fine again. This still happens to me and she died in 1996. Once I saw a little crafts store type wooden sign in some yard while driving by, it read "Grandma's house, where children are spoiled at will." and that was enough to put me in a funk for days..