ok so today sucked cause i havent been sleeping and i am still very very sick.. i was not in a good mood plus issues with certain other people are not good either ( Read more... )

ok so this weekend has sucked majorly.. i have been very sick from firday night when rich and shawn picked me up from joys house after we got out of work.. till now and still now... but im gettin a lil better. i had to call into crowne on sat and lost a huge paycheck that way and then again today at damons... not good.. but i couldnt help it.. i ( Read more... )

ok so it has been a while... im sure you all missed me sooo much huh??? nah ( Read more... )

sometimes i wish you would care about me a fraction of what u care about certain other people

i cant do this anymore ( Read more... )

ok so i guess i should update... big whoohoo huh?? ok well fri night was joys bday.. it was a damn good time.. i love you joy!!! HAPPY 19th.. my girl is gettin soooo old. shes all grown up now. see this was a happy part of my weekend.. but then, joy always makes me happy!!!! so ya know ( Read more... )

ok so check this shit out.. i drove my lil ass off today in my lovely van... sweet deal right.. hell yeah! all is good.. so i get home and i bounce soon after chill with shawn for a lil bit (which btw dumbass of the day award goes to me) and then i hook up with 2 of my most favorite people.. who by the way i laughed my ass off with. ok.. i go to ( Read more... )

wow.. i really cant win now matter what i do can i??? see i dont even wanna win.. i just wanna be remotely close in the runnings.. but i cannot do that. i cannot be something that you used ot have.. i cannot be someone that i am not.. i cannot be everything you want... because i do not live up to expectation.. i never have, and if u expect me to ( Read more... )

ok so i officially suck at updating... and i really do apologize to all of you who have read this and seen my rants.. what can i say.. life sucks, its gets crazy, u vent and bitch a lil, its still crazy, but you try to move on.. eh?? i didnt realize that people really read this.. but hey thats cool.. i appreciate your readings.. comment more, i ( Read more... )

i am so sick to death of feeling like something that you can just fucking forget about and then come back to when u feel liek it.. or when you by chance rememeber that i am here. funny, i thought i meant more. i thought i WAS more. but i dont hold prioriety. i wouldnt really know that "first on the list feeling"... there is always something ( Read more... )